Karen Mauck is my guest today. There has been a LOT of buzz the last year or so about self-publishing. I thought it would be nice to hear from Karen about why she took this route and how it's worked for her so far. Nursery Crimes is her fourth book.
When you hear someone has self-published a book, what’s the first thing you think?
I might know your answer, because I’ve heard it before: some people think self-publishing is for lousy writers who couldn’t get an agent or “real” publisher to give them the time of day. And believe me, I have seen some self-published books that fit into that category. But not all of them. Ever heard of Amanda Hocking? You will.
So you may ask, knowing that I admit there is ongoing debate about the value of self-publishing, why did I choose that route with my latest book? Or, for that matter, all four of my novels?
Oh, I tried the traditional route, querying agents and attending conferences. I was always rejected. But that doesn’t mean I am a lousy writer. (I hope.) The few rejections that were not form letters but were instead directed at my material mentioned things that I consider personal preferences, such as “It’s not long enough for what I’m looking for” or “There are too many stories with cops.” I’ve heard from other writers who received rejections that were not so nice, so I’d go as far as saying those are good rejections.
Another reason for the rejections, in my probably underinformed opinion, is that so many people are trying to pitch a novel to an industry that lately somehow seems to be both oversaturated and in flux. Everybody and their sister thinks they can write a book (Snooki, anyone? And yes, I am including myself as one of the sisters), and yet bookstores are in bankruptcy and publishing models are being debated (paper vs. e-book, traditional vs. independent, which is what I am).
There were several hundred people at just one regional writer’s conference I attended, all hoping to be published. Multiply that by however many other conferences, regional and national, in a given year, then multiply that number by genre – thriller, romance, mystery, childrens, biography, literary fiction, etc. – then divide by how many books a publisher releases in any given year, and that’s a lot of rejections. I’m not alone.
Even if I were lucky enough to get a contract with an agent, who was then able to successfully pitch it to a publisher, my novel wouldn’t see the light of day for a couple years. A book accepted today might not make it to print until 2014. And one thing I have learned is, life is short. Doing it my way means I have an actual book with my name on it in my hot little hands in less than 4 months.
This reminds me of another reason I chose to self-publish: my recent release, Nursery Crimes, has been completed since 2007. It sat, forlornly languishing, in the bowels of my computer since then (long enough that I had to update some technology references I made). I figured that was long enough. It was time to do something. I spent all that time writing it, I might as well let someone actually read it.
And why not now, when self-published books are losing the less-than-stellar reputation they had when I first started publishing this way 10 years ago. There will always be people who deride them, but others are giving them some respect, national best-selling authors with recognizable names, no less. Just ask JA Konrath or Bob Mayer how well sales of their self-published novels are going. (Hint: Very well indeed.)
There are now a great many companies that offer various levels of self-publishing services, many more than when I started out. Back when the rejections were piling up on my first book (Scraps), someone pointed out to me one of these then-new companies, iUniverse. I checked them out and liked what I saw, so I tried it out. I liked it so much that this is now the fourth time I’ve used them.
I like them because they do a lot of the work for me, and I am inherently lazy. I could have done it all myself, applying for the ISBN number and asking retailers to carry it and designing the cover and all that. I know someone who did that, and after several years of good selling she has yet to break even, plus she has a few thousand copies of her book in her basement. The company I chose did it all for me, for far less money that what she spent going it alone, and I don’t need to stockpile anything. They did an editorial review and made suggestions to help me make it better. I told them what I wanted the cover to look like, and they did it. They listed me on amazon.com and other Web sites like Barnes and Noble and Borders, plus Ingram’s Books in Print so anyone can walk into any bookstore and order it. They formatted it in both paperback and e-book. They also provide me with opportunities to advertise in magazines, newspapers, and e-mail blasts, if I so choose. I couldn’t figure out how to do that (well, I probably could, but you’ll remember that I’m lazy), let alone afford the rates I’d be charged if it did it myself. They handle the orders and the shipping for me, and deposit a check into my bank account at the end of the quarter if I’ve sold anything. And if a “real” publisher somehow stumbles across my stuff and wants to publish it themselves, I am free to accept their kind offer. (Other companies offer similar services at various costs; if you are interested in doing this yourself, I suggest you do some research to see which one is right for you.)
Now, there are other, newer services I could have used that would have cost me less, much less; if I had wanted to create my novel as an e-book only, I could have done it for practically free with services such as createspace. But I am admittedly technophobic – I will carry my flip-style cell phone until either I or the phone die – and still prefer the traditional paper book to e-book (although I do read e-books – mainly authors who publish e-book only). Using this option allows me to offer the book in both formats. Plus it was a known entity; I’d used them before and knew what to expect.
Sometimes self-publishing is called Print-On-Demand (POD) or even “vanity press.” I find that last term somewhat dismissive, but on the other hand, perhaps it fits. Because I printed my books just for me.
I guess that’s not entirely true. I asked local bookstores to carry my books. I made bookmarks and postcards and gave them to every person I knew, and a few I didn’t. I bought a fun shirt with Velcro letters that I used to spell out “Ask me about my book”, then actually wore it in public. I put up signs on coffee shop bulletin boards. I set up tables for book singings at art shows, book fairs, and garage sales. I’m posting about it on Facebook and various blogs.
But.
I don’t expect to sell a lot. I don’t delude myself into thinking I am the next Nora Roberts, or even the next Snooki, for that matter. I’m not doing this to get rich. I’m doing it because I like to write stories. And if I make a few dollars in the process, that’s just an added bonus.
All this is not to say I won’t ever publish the traditional route. I still have one completed manuscript and a couple languishing works in progress up my sleeve, just waiting for the right time, the right stage, the right platform to publish. Maybe I’ll go with the same press, or try one of the many other companies. Maybe I’ll finally embrace technology and try this new-fangled e-book-only route that’s been so successful for Miss Hocking and others. Or, who knows? I may yet have a shot at the big leagues the traditional way. Maybe one day I’ll be rich and famous despite all my best efforts to the contrary.
Karen Mauck writes sexy romantic suspense and is the author of Scraps, Pomp and Circumstantial Evidence, Last to Know, and her latest release, Nursery Crimes. She lives in southeastern Michigan.
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With only twisted nursery rhymes as clues, a tough, dedicated cop puts his life, and his heart, on the line to protect a schoolteacher and her young students from a killer calling himself Father Noose.
Jillian Hobart is passionate about teaching and devoted to her class of kindergartners. But someone else is showing a more deadly interest in her students, leaving eerie nursery rhymes behind as her students begin to disappear.
Deputy Sheriff Peter Dack is attracted to Jillian's quiet intensity even though his job requires he keep her at arm's length. But working together to stop the killer brings them into close contact, increasing the heat even as it becomes apparent that the intended target may not be Jillian's students — but rather Jillian herself.
Tuesday, June 21, 2011
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Children's Movies
Last week, I was going through the movies at work and marking them as one of the AFI Top 100 movies. Two were children's movies. I got to thinking that there should be a list of Top 100 Children's movies. There is but I don't agree with it. A significant portion are from the original list.
So I thought about what I consider a great kids' movie. My criteria were simple. The movie had to entertain, engage and linger. It had to stand the test of time. Was I still thinking about those characters/story/plot for months or years afterward? Would my niece, who is ten years old, be as thrilled/entertained/entranced as I? I've only been able to run the last test by a few of them but one surprised me by not making her cut. ET bored her to tears. ET! While a singing Sean Connery amuses me no end, she found the effects on Darby O'Gill and the little people to be too clunky.
My brief list includes, in no particular order,
The Railway Children
Chitty Chitty Bang Bang
Shrek
Napoleon and Samantha
Mary Poppins
Bedknobs and Broomsticks
Babe
Beetlejuice
Chicken Run
Gremlins
Nightmare before Christmas
Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory
Lilo and Stitch
Monster's Inc.
How to train your dragon
Cars
Swiss Family Robinson
The Princess Bride
Finding Nemo
Bridge to Terabithia
Herbie the Lovebug (the original)
The one and only Genuine original family band
The Parent Trap(Hayley Mills)
There are some great classics in that list, and others to see in the trailers. I feel like spending the afternoon with some old celluloid friends. Which movies would you add to this list?
So I thought about what I consider a great kids' movie. My criteria were simple. The movie had to entertain, engage and linger. It had to stand the test of time. Was I still thinking about those characters/story/plot for months or years afterward? Would my niece, who is ten years old, be as thrilled/entertained/entranced as I? I've only been able to run the last test by a few of them but one surprised me by not making her cut. ET bored her to tears. ET! While a singing Sean Connery amuses me no end, she found the effects on Darby O'Gill and the little people to be too clunky.
My brief list includes, in no particular order,
The Railway Children
Chitty Chitty Bang Bang
Shrek
Napoleon and Samantha
Mary Poppins
Bedknobs and Broomsticks
Babe
Beetlejuice
Chicken Run
Gremlins
Nightmare before Christmas
Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory
Lilo and Stitch
Monster's Inc.
How to train your dragon
Cars
Swiss Family Robinson
The Princess Bride
Finding Nemo
Bridge to Terabithia
Herbie the Lovebug (the original)
The one and only Genuine original family band
The Parent Trap(Hayley Mills)
There are some great classics in that list, and others to see in the trailers. I feel like spending the afternoon with some old celluloid friends. Which movies would you add to this list?
Sunday, June 05, 2011
One format, multiple ereaders
I've complained about them before. I'm still not satisfied that any one reader is going to do what I want it to do. My request is simple - read the books I buy.
I don't want to be tied to Sony, Amazon, Chapters, Barnes and Noble. I want to buy books from whatever store I want then read them on whatever device I prefer. I don't want to be tied to one reader and one reader only. There's a hardcover book I've been reading from the library, Harmony. It's a coffee table book full of weighty issues. I could use it as a tray table, it's so big. I'm enjoying it immensely but am exhausted from carrying it. I was going to buy the ebook version but was stopped by the need to commit to a particular reader.
Right now, I'm reading pdf files on my laptop and smartphone. I have a Sony PSR-350 Reader that freezes all the time. It may have been run over by my mom's wheelchair when she was rushed to the hospital a few weeks ago. I'm not sure as I wasn't with her but her purse has a big tear in it. Regardless, the Sony Reader is frozen. I cannot reset it. I cannot power it down. I've been staring at the same page for the last two days trying to figure out how to fix it. I've followed along on all the Sony forums looking for a solution. So far, nothing has worked.
All of the books are saved to the laptop but they were purchased from the Sony store. I can't transfer them to my phone and read them there. I can read from the laptop but who wants to lug that around everywhere? If I replace the reader, I'll have to replace it with another Sony so that I don't lose all of my purchases. That doesn't seem right.
So I ask, why aren't all ebooks in the same format? They've done it for CDs and DVDs. Why not for books?
I've purchased several items from Who Dares Wins Publishing for several reasons. One, I like the way both Bob Mayer and Jenni Holbrook write. They provide entertaining reads. Two, and equally as important for me, I can buy their books in pdf versions. This means I can read them everywhere I want, on whatever device I choose.
They dare. I win.
Why doesn't everyone else offer that option? It's clearly possible.
I don't want to be tied to Sony, Amazon, Chapters, Barnes and Noble. I want to buy books from whatever store I want then read them on whatever device I prefer. I don't want to be tied to one reader and one reader only. There's a hardcover book I've been reading from the library, Harmony. It's a coffee table book full of weighty issues. I could use it as a tray table, it's so big. I'm enjoying it immensely but am exhausted from carrying it. I was going to buy the ebook version but was stopped by the need to commit to a particular reader.
Right now, I'm reading pdf files on my laptop and smartphone. I have a Sony PSR-350 Reader that freezes all the time. It may have been run over by my mom's wheelchair when she was rushed to the hospital a few weeks ago. I'm not sure as I wasn't with her but her purse has a big tear in it. Regardless, the Sony Reader is frozen. I cannot reset it. I cannot power it down. I've been staring at the same page for the last two days trying to figure out how to fix it. I've followed along on all the Sony forums looking for a solution. So far, nothing has worked.
All of the books are saved to the laptop but they were purchased from the Sony store. I can't transfer them to my phone and read them there. I can read from the laptop but who wants to lug that around everywhere? If I replace the reader, I'll have to replace it with another Sony so that I don't lose all of my purchases. That doesn't seem right.
So I ask, why aren't all ebooks in the same format? They've done it for CDs and DVDs. Why not for books?
I've purchased several items from Who Dares Wins Publishing for several reasons. One, I like the way both Bob Mayer and Jenni Holbrook write. They provide entertaining reads. Two, and equally as important for me, I can buy their books in pdf versions. This means I can read them everywhere I want, on whatever device I choose.
They dare. I win.
Why doesn't everyone else offer that option? It's clearly possible.
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Volcano
Despite the fact, that I have had absolutely nothing to do with it, I'm very proud of my friend, Jon Gustafsson. His footage of the latest volcanic eruption in Iceland has made news around the world. It's been voted one of the top videos at several different sites.
It's incredible footage. Fantastic. Awe-inspiring. Beautiful. Maybe a bit scary.
Go look at it. If you're not impressed, well then, I don't know what to say. Mother Nature is something else. She has a way of putting life in perspective.
It's incredible footage. Fantastic. Awe-inspiring. Beautiful. Maybe a bit scary.
Go look at it. If you're not impressed, well then, I don't know what to say. Mother Nature is something else. She has a way of putting life in perspective.
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Alex's home and Nea's tree
I popped by the site of Hell to Pay last week to remind myself of that book's existence.
Spring has bloomed around Alex's place
The wind that tore across North America a couple of weeks ago did some damage to Nea's tree
It's not bad by most standards but she did lose several limbs. They'll grow back.
Spring has bloomed around Alex's place
The wind that tore across North America a couple of weeks ago did some damage to Nea's tree
It's not bad by most standards but she did lose several limbs. They'll grow back.
Sunday, May 08, 2011
Mother's Day
Apparently, this is the day I'm supposed to honour my mother. Huh. I thought I was supposed to do that every day.
My mom is ill and has been for some time. For the last few years, I've been treating our time together as precious. My parents moved into the apartment downstairs. My day begins with a hello to and from Mom and ends with a kiss goodnight.
In the last ten years, several of my friends have lost their mothers. We're not old enough for this but who ever is? When my grandmother died two years ago, my dad became an orphan. It doesn't matter that he's a grandfather. He no longer has his parents to turn to in those moments when only your parents truly understand how you feel/what you need.
When I was a kid, I'd whine because there was a Mother's Day and a Father's Day but no Kids' Day. My dad said every day was Kids' Day. Oh, how right he was. In turn though, we should honour our parents and grandparents every day, not just on the day designated by greeting card companies.
There are some people who don't have parents, who grew up without the comfort and certainty of their mother's love. They didn't hatch in the cabbage patch but they didn't have moms either. The hype and commerce of today's fake holiday is a bitter reminder of what they don't have. It's bad enough that the rest of us feel like inadequate slackers because we didn't buy Mom a diamond necklace, a houseful of flowers and angels singing her praises. The brilliance and necessity of mothers is everywhere right now. It can be overwhelming.
I'm not a mom. This is not my holiday. I'm okay with that. I have a mom I do adore. I have children who I'd fight tooth and claw to provide for and protect. I have the best of both worlds.
I realize it every single day, even if I don't tell them how blessed I am. I do my best to show them how much I truly love them each and every day, not just once a year.
My mom is ill and has been for some time. For the last few years, I've been treating our time together as precious. My parents moved into the apartment downstairs. My day begins with a hello to and from Mom and ends with a kiss goodnight.
In the last ten years, several of my friends have lost their mothers. We're not old enough for this but who ever is? When my grandmother died two years ago, my dad became an orphan. It doesn't matter that he's a grandfather. He no longer has his parents to turn to in those moments when only your parents truly understand how you feel/what you need.
When I was a kid, I'd whine because there was a Mother's Day and a Father's Day but no Kids' Day. My dad said every day was Kids' Day. Oh, how right he was. In turn though, we should honour our parents and grandparents every day, not just on the day designated by greeting card companies.
There are some people who don't have parents, who grew up without the comfort and certainty of their mother's love. They didn't hatch in the cabbage patch but they didn't have moms either. The hype and commerce of today's fake holiday is a bitter reminder of what they don't have. It's bad enough that the rest of us feel like inadequate slackers because we didn't buy Mom a diamond necklace, a houseful of flowers and angels singing her praises. The brilliance and necessity of mothers is everywhere right now. It can be overwhelming.
I'm not a mom. This is not my holiday. I'm okay with that. I have a mom I do adore. I have children who I'd fight tooth and claw to provide for and protect. I have the best of both worlds.
I realize it every single day, even if I don't tell them how blessed I am. I do my best to show them how much I truly love them each and every day, not just once a year.
Monday, April 25, 2011
Heal Casey progress
I actually did a fair amount of editing last week. I worked on Casey's story every night. I even made a google map, or tried to, of Casey's journey from his birthplace on the reservation in Northern Ontario to our little town in the Niagara Region. Google couldn't handle it. As the only way in or out of the reservation is by air, the Mighty Search Engine was unable to calculate the trip. I was able to estimate the distance to the nearest town and determined the mileage from there. Score one for the human. Score another one for the dog who took a plane, train and car for over 2,000 kilometers to reach us. No wonder he's such a good traveler.
There are just a few more chapters to edit. Then the opening has to be made far more dynamic followed by another read-through and a polish.
Holding myself accountable on this blog does keep me focused and productive. I'm less distracted by,
oh, gorgeous man in chain mail.
What was I doing?
There are just a few more chapters to edit. Then the opening has to be made far more dynamic followed by another read-through and a polish.
Holding myself accountable on this blog does keep me focused and productive. I'm less distracted by,
oh, gorgeous man in chain mail.
What was I doing?
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Inspiration
My nephew has being staying up every night writing. Like me, he does it in layers. Unlike me, he's actually writing.
Last weekend was spent with some very creative people in my life - filmmakers, spinners, designers...people who inspire me on many levels. I came home fired up to finish Casey's story. (And to get back to Sturla's Sweater as the sweater book is called) Neither impulse lasted long.
Heal Casey is just in need of polishing edits. So why do I continue to ignore it? Part of the problem is that the story of how he healed my mom and vice versa is no longer true. She isn't healing. She's been going through a really rough patch. Not even Casey's antics can help her at this point. It's hard to revisit optimism and enthusiasm in the face of reality. As that's not going to improve any time soon, I need to suck it up and finish. For the first time in months, Casey is going swimming on Tuesday. I will use his joy to propel the editing process. I promise to check back in here with a progress report.
Stasholic is coming for a visit next week. There will be much wine, wool and more than a few freeze frames of Sturla's Sweater as we enjoy another viewing of Wrath of Gods. It's spectacular. If it doesn't inspire me to hit the keyboard, nothing will.
Last weekend was spent with some very creative people in my life - filmmakers, spinners, designers...people who inspire me on many levels. I came home fired up to finish Casey's story. (And to get back to Sturla's Sweater as the sweater book is called) Neither impulse lasted long.
Heal Casey is just in need of polishing edits. So why do I continue to ignore it? Part of the problem is that the story of how he healed my mom and vice versa is no longer true. She isn't healing. She's been going through a really rough patch. Not even Casey's antics can help her at this point. It's hard to revisit optimism and enthusiasm in the face of reality. As that's not going to improve any time soon, I need to suck it up and finish. For the first time in months, Casey is going swimming on Tuesday. I will use his joy to propel the editing process. I promise to check back in here with a progress report.
Stasholic is coming for a visit next week. There will be much wine, wool and more than a few freeze frames of Sturla's Sweater as we enjoy another viewing of Wrath of Gods. It's spectacular. If it doesn't inspire me to hit the keyboard, nothing will.
Sunday, April 03, 2011
Labels - not a fan
I mentioned the other day to a friend that I'm not getting along with writing. She suggested I redefine myself - spinner, knitter, caregiver. I didn't like those definitions. For one thing they don't fill my life(okay, maybe the last one does)like writing did and none of them feed my soul. Or pull my brain out through my eyes so perhaps that's not a bad thing.
I'm not a fan of labels. I find them limiting. We're told to claim our identity, embrace it. Own it. I am a writer. I am a knitter/spinner/crocheter/photographer/painter. I am so much more than all of those things. I'm definitely creative but as previous posts would suggest, I don't exactly like to be tied to any one thing. I follow the Muse wherever she may take me.
I'm also reliable and meet deadlines. I can be practical. I have a job that pays me enough that I can indulge my creativity without stressing over whether it will pay the bills.
I'm a tree hugging conservationist. Who happens to love auto racing in its variety of forms.
I love animals but still eat meat (though I'm one of the few chicken-eating vegetarians out there)
As soon as you stick a label on me, regardless of what it is, I feel stifled/confined/restrained by that label. I'm a contrary bitch who will cut off my nose to spite my face(not literally, I'm too vain for that). It doesn't make sense but I've learned that about myself. I'm a rebel at heart. Yet I'm not an anarchist either. Some rules are there for good reason. It's the labels to which I object.
It all started when I was a wee mite in the 60's(ah, yes, that does explain so much) The idea of gender was presented to my young mind as something over which I had no control. I couldn't run around without a shirt because I was a girl. I had to swelter in the heat while my boy friends were FREE. Being a girl didn't seem like as much fun. I didn't want to be a girl(I'm not so sure I wanted to be a boy either but those were the only options presented to me at the time)
This isn't a blog about transgender, it's about labels and the idea to 3 year-old me that I was limited in my abilities because of my gender was the foundation for my hate affair with all labels. It's ridiculous to suggest that because one thing is important to me, or a part of my identity, that another thing can't be as significant.
Okay, yes I am a girl. I do not have a penis, and despite what I told my other 3 year-old friends I did not have one and it fell off. I like being a girl. I liked being a tomboy and climbing trees and wearing dresses and halters and high heels and playing goalie for the road hockey team and being defense on the soccer team and all sorts of other things that had nothing to do with the label of gender.
So while I do think it's important to acknowledge who you are (I am a writer) don't let that limit you in your experience. I'm taking some time to simply experience life instead of recording it. Be who you are. Don't limit yourself. Experience yourself to the fullest.
I'm not a fan of labels. I find them limiting. We're told to claim our identity, embrace it. Own it. I am a writer. I am a knitter/spinner/crocheter/photographer/painter. I am so much more than all of those things. I'm definitely creative but as previous posts would suggest, I don't exactly like to be tied to any one thing. I follow the Muse wherever she may take me.
I'm also reliable and meet deadlines. I can be practical. I have a job that pays me enough that I can indulge my creativity without stressing over whether it will pay the bills.
I'm a tree hugging conservationist. Who happens to love auto racing in its variety of forms.
I love animals but still eat meat (though I'm one of the few chicken-eating vegetarians out there)
As soon as you stick a label on me, regardless of what it is, I feel stifled/confined/restrained by that label. I'm a contrary bitch who will cut off my nose to spite my face(not literally, I'm too vain for that). It doesn't make sense but I've learned that about myself. I'm a rebel at heart. Yet I'm not an anarchist either. Some rules are there for good reason. It's the labels to which I object.
It all started when I was a wee mite in the 60's(ah, yes, that does explain so much) The idea of gender was presented to my young mind as something over which I had no control. I couldn't run around without a shirt because I was a girl. I had to swelter in the heat while my boy friends were FREE. Being a girl didn't seem like as much fun. I didn't want to be a girl(I'm not so sure I wanted to be a boy either but those were the only options presented to me at the time)
This isn't a blog about transgender, it's about labels and the idea to 3 year-old me that I was limited in my abilities because of my gender was the foundation for my hate affair with all labels. It's ridiculous to suggest that because one thing is important to me, or a part of my identity, that another thing can't be as significant.
Okay, yes I am a girl. I do not have a penis, and despite what I told my other 3 year-old friends I did not have one and it fell off. I like being a girl. I liked being a tomboy and climbing trees and wearing dresses and halters and high heels and playing goalie for the road hockey team and being defense on the soccer team and all sorts of other things that had nothing to do with the label of gender.
So while I do think it's important to acknowledge who you are (I am a writer) don't let that limit you in your experience. I'm taking some time to simply experience life instead of recording it. Be who you are. Don't limit yourself. Experience yourself to the fullest.
Sunday, March 27, 2011
Alternate career
I want to run away and join an animal sanctuary. I can feed baby elephants whose mothers have been killed. I can clean lion pens. Groom camels.
I want to be a documentary filmmaker and travel the world recording everything from the mating habits of the dung beetle to the effect of granola bars on the global economy. I want to study big issues, and small ones.
I want to be a dancer - to glide across the floor with beauty and grace.
I want to be an accomplished piano player. Someone who can change the mood of a room with the stroke of a key.
I want to be a marine biologist and study narwhals. Or squid. Or plankton.
There are so many things I'd like to do with my life that I have neither talent nor training to do. That's why reading books and watching documentaries are so wonderful. They can take me to those worlds, put me in those jobs or lifestyles. They expand my narrow view of the world. And sometimes I learn something new to keep with me in this life I currently live.
What skill or talent do you wish you had?
I want to be a documentary filmmaker and travel the world recording everything from the mating habits of the dung beetle to the effect of granola bars on the global economy. I want to study big issues, and small ones.
I want to be a dancer - to glide across the floor with beauty and grace.
I want to be an accomplished piano player. Someone who can change the mood of a room with the stroke of a key.
I want to be a marine biologist and study narwhals. Or squid. Or plankton.
There are so many things I'd like to do with my life that I have neither talent nor training to do. That's why reading books and watching documentaries are so wonderful. They can take me to those worlds, put me in those jobs or lifestyles. They expand my narrow view of the world. And sometimes I learn something new to keep with me in this life I currently live.
What skill or talent do you wish you had?
Sunday, March 20, 2011
One Good Thing
My laptop had the dreaded Blue Screen of Death so I replaced it. There`s nothing on this new system, apart from some games that are a minor distraction. It`s strange not to have all of my photographs at my fingertips. I had backed documents up to my online accounts so that`s all accessible.
I like the shiny white newness of it all. I literally have a blank slate. A fresh start.
There are endless opportunities and possibilities just waiting for me to jump in there. With all that`s going on in the world these days, disasters and tragedies, loss and devastation, it seems frivolous to be so pleased with a new toy. I`ve had a few sleepless nights lately so it`s easy to please me right now.
I`m determined to find One Good Thing every single day and rejoice in all that life has to offer. By focusing on on that instead of all the horror is a good coping skill. It also reminds us why we should pick up the pieces and carry on.
One Good Thing. One a day. Try it. It`s a small thing with a huge potential
I like the shiny white newness of it all. I literally have a blank slate. A fresh start.
There are endless opportunities and possibilities just waiting for me to jump in there. With all that`s going on in the world these days, disasters and tragedies, loss and devastation, it seems frivolous to be so pleased with a new toy. I`ve had a few sleepless nights lately so it`s easy to please me right now.
I`m determined to find One Good Thing every single day and rejoice in all that life has to offer. By focusing on on that instead of all the horror is a good coping skill. It also reminds us why we should pick up the pieces and carry on.
One Good Thing. One a day. Try it. It`s a small thing with a huge potential
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Relief
So many of the photos coming out of Japan remind me of this picture I took of my friend's son's cars.
That's just wrong. Please donate to the organization of your choice. And let's not forget the people of Haiti and Pakistan who are still recovering from their respective earthquakes as well. Empathy and compassion can help rebuild communities.
Thank you.
That's just wrong. Please donate to the organization of your choice. And let's not forget the people of Haiti and Pakistan who are still recovering from their respective earthquakes as well. Empathy and compassion can help rebuild communities.
Thank you.
Sunday, March 06, 2011
Sportswriting
It's a difficult genre to master. A lot of books about specific sports focus on a particular team or player. Sometimes they're about one race, one game, one title or the difference one year made in that sport's history.
It's all too easy to fall into a litany of statistics and brilliant moves. I always struggled with the balance between describing play-by-play action and capturing the essence of the game when I wrote about the team for the local paper.
In all of the sport books and articles I've read over the years, it's been the rare author who captures the spirit of the book with their writing style. Speed, skill, colour and grace explode/dance/thunder down the pages on a variety of subjects.
Right now, I'm reading The World is a ball. If you're one of those people who thinks watching soccer is like watching paint dry - give this book a read. John Doyle is able to capture the beauty, brilliance and excitement of soccer and describe it in such a way that has me reaching for the television remote. I want to immerse myself in the sport after reading three pages.
I read along at a slow pace, absorbing every word, considering all the nuance and complexities revealed. I stop after a few pages just to think about what he's described - the sea of orange that flows through all the streets, alleys and doorways ahead of the Dutch team. The brilliance and spectacle of the Brazilian supporters. The organization and dedication of the Korean fans.
He conveys not just the mood and atmosphere of the World Cup but the significance of team movement, of supporter reaction and how everything all melds together to create a magnificent insight into national identities and international relationships.
If you love soccer, or love someone who does, read this book. It will expand your knowledge and appreciation for "the beautiful game".
It's all too easy to fall into a litany of statistics and brilliant moves. I always struggled with the balance between describing play-by-play action and capturing the essence of the game when I wrote about the team for the local paper.
In all of the sport books and articles I've read over the years, it's been the rare author who captures the spirit of the book with their writing style. Speed, skill, colour and grace explode/dance/thunder down the pages on a variety of subjects.
Right now, I'm reading The World is a ball. If you're one of those people who thinks watching soccer is like watching paint dry - give this book a read. John Doyle is able to capture the beauty, brilliance and excitement of soccer and describe it in such a way that has me reaching for the television remote. I want to immerse myself in the sport after reading three pages.
I read along at a slow pace, absorbing every word, considering all the nuance and complexities revealed. I stop after a few pages just to think about what he's described - the sea of orange that flows through all the streets, alleys and doorways ahead of the Dutch team. The brilliance and spectacle of the Brazilian supporters. The organization and dedication of the Korean fans.
He conveys not just the mood and atmosphere of the World Cup but the significance of team movement, of supporter reaction and how everything all melds together to create a magnificent insight into national identities and international relationships.
If you love soccer, or love someone who does, read this book. It will expand your knowledge and appreciation for "the beautiful game".
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Writer's Options
While on this relationship time-out that writing and I have taken, I have kept in loose touch with some of our mutual friends. Bob Mayer is doing some interesting things in the world of publishing in the digital age. I highly recommend perusing his blog posts to get an authour driven perspective, as well as the business possibilities that abound. This article in particular discusses self-publishing. Opportunities lurk behind every corner these days. Should we all self-publish?
I've definitely given Lulu a few quick glances from beneath lowered lashes. I've got a memoir that I want to print three copies of for family use. I have an illustrated children's book that needs a half dozen copies. Lulu certainly gives me options. I've praised the heck out of a novel, Need to Know by Christine Merrill, that I purchased from that site several months ago so I know how well they do e-books.
I still have my issues with Amazon and Kindle but I've gone ahead and purchased my very own copy of Splitting the Difference by my friend Lisa Deon. When you read why she published with Amazon after reading the self-publishing blog post from above, I guarantee that it will get your writer brain pondering your options.
If you're a Reader, your world just expanded. Go get Lisa's story. And enjoy!
I've definitely given Lulu a few quick glances from beneath lowered lashes. I've got a memoir that I want to print three copies of for family use. I have an illustrated children's book that needs a half dozen copies. Lulu certainly gives me options. I've praised the heck out of a novel, Need to Know by Christine Merrill, that I purchased from that site several months ago so I know how well they do e-books.
I still have my issues with Amazon and Kindle but I've gone ahead and purchased my very own copy of Splitting the Difference by my friend Lisa Deon. When you read why she published with Amazon after reading the self-publishing blog post from above, I guarantee that it will get your writer brain pondering your options.
If you're a Reader, your world just expanded. Go get Lisa's story. And enjoy!
Sunday, February 06, 2011
Writing breakup or much needed break?
Writing and I are a taking a break from each other and evaluating our relationship. It was my idea and I may have actually used the "It's not you, it's me" phrase. Writing doesn't seem to mind, or have missed me in the slightest.I don't miss writing all that much either.
What I really don't miss are the hours and hours spent in front of the computer, trying to second-guess the characters or agonizing over the plot. Writing - like any relationship - is a lot of hard work.
I'm not adverse to hard work. I don't even mind the lack of balance between slave labour and minimal reward. Initially, I thought the break was motivated by the complete and utter lack of reward but, now I'm not so sure.
I don't want to talk about writing with anyone. Reading is another subject entirely. I can discuss a good book for hours. If someone starts to talk to me about craft, plot, character arc or structure in my own work or theirs then I feel a very negative physical reaction.
I take encouragement as patronizing or even condescending when it's not meant that way. I get angry when people tell me how to resolve my writer's block. It's not a block. I'm not stuck. I have words and ideas. I just don't want to write, yet the whole thought of not being a writer makes me ill. It's been a part of my identity for as long as I can remember. Is that what I cling to? Is the idea of being a writer what I care for more than the writing itself?
Clearly, I'm not over writing. There's a lot of unresolved emotion there. If we have any chance of working it out and getting back together I need to examine what's turned my love to hate. They're two sides of the same coin. I am not indifferent to writing in the least.
Perhaps this time apart will help me evaluate our relationship, put things into perspective and help me find a healthier balance than the all-or-nothing attitude I seem to have these days. If not, then I have plenty of paper with which to line the bird cage.
What I really don't miss are the hours and hours spent in front of the computer, trying to second-guess the characters or agonizing over the plot. Writing - like any relationship - is a lot of hard work.
I'm not adverse to hard work. I don't even mind the lack of balance between slave labour and minimal reward. Initially, I thought the break was motivated by the complete and utter lack of reward but, now I'm not so sure.
I don't want to talk about writing with anyone. Reading is another subject entirely. I can discuss a good book for hours. If someone starts to talk to me about craft, plot, character arc or structure in my own work or theirs then I feel a very negative physical reaction.
I take encouragement as patronizing or even condescending when it's not meant that way. I get angry when people tell me how to resolve my writer's block. It's not a block. I'm not stuck. I have words and ideas. I just don't want to write, yet the whole thought of not being a writer makes me ill. It's been a part of my identity for as long as I can remember. Is that what I cling to? Is the idea of being a writer what I care for more than the writing itself?
Clearly, I'm not over writing. There's a lot of unresolved emotion there. If we have any chance of working it out and getting back together I need to examine what's turned my love to hate. They're two sides of the same coin. I am not indifferent to writing in the least.
Perhaps this time apart will help me evaluate our relationship, put things into perspective and help me find a healthier balance than the all-or-nothing attitude I seem to have these days. If not, then I have plenty of paper with which to line the bird cage.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
World Peace
This photo (it's all about content not quality, I apologize for the latter) is the reason I believe world peace is possible. Three instinctual enemies coexist quite peacefully beneath the same roof. They've learned to check their instincts, adjust their expectations and trust each other. Whenever one of them throws things out of balance, the others give him leeway and let things slide. Grievances are forgiven, injuries are rare and always minor.
I had planned to post that photo last week but life kept me away from the computer. In light of this week's events it seems all the more relevant. You might think it's cheeky of me to compare three animals to the cultural diversity in the Middle East. But I couldn't help think of my photo when I saw the one of Muslims and Christians linking arms to protect the antiquities at one of the museums in Cairo.
I believe we can all get along.
I had planned to post that photo last week but life kept me away from the computer. In light of this week's events it seems all the more relevant. You might think it's cheeky of me to compare three animals to the cultural diversity in the Middle East. But I couldn't help think of my photo when I saw the one of Muslims and Christians linking arms to protect the antiquities at one of the museums in Cairo.
I believe we can all get along.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Finishing
Right now I'm working on several projects - one at a time. There are so many unfinished creative bits of myself lying around the house. I want to organize and declutter. Traditionally, January is a slow time at work in a month filled with sad anniversaries. The spike-in-the-chest pain has subsided over the years to a dull ache that never goes away. I need to be productive.
So far this weekend, I've finished a hat, a baby jacket and a sweater. I've pulled out two more sweaters and a wrap that were tossed aside for Christmas projects. One of the Christmas projects wasn't finished in time for my parents to see so that has to be completed. I have still to input one letter my mom wrote to my grandmother when we were stationed in Germany. Most of the photographs have been scanned. I have to sit down with my parents and document the stories that go with the pictures then put them all together. Then I have to navigate Lulu so the memories will be preserved for the kids.
At some point I also need to finish Casey's revisions. I've been carting that sheaf of papers with me all over town and on my recent travels. Someone somewhere is waiting for that book to come out and show them how to help their own dog. I need to finish it.
I need to finish a lot of things before I start new. I will. I always do. I may have slowed down a bit lately but that doesn't mean I'm not always thinking about how to continue/improve/finish. I am. I will.
Finishing - an important part of creating.
So far this weekend, I've finished a hat, a baby jacket and a sweater. I've pulled out two more sweaters and a wrap that were tossed aside for Christmas projects. One of the Christmas projects wasn't finished in time for my parents to see so that has to be completed. I have still to input one letter my mom wrote to my grandmother when we were stationed in Germany. Most of the photographs have been scanned. I have to sit down with my parents and document the stories that go with the pictures then put them all together. Then I have to navigate Lulu so the memories will be preserved for the kids.
At some point I also need to finish Casey's revisions. I've been carting that sheaf of papers with me all over town and on my recent travels. Someone somewhere is waiting for that book to come out and show them how to help their own dog. I need to finish it.
I need to finish a lot of things before I start new. I will. I always do. I may have slowed down a bit lately but that doesn't mean I'm not always thinking about how to continue/improve/finish. I am. I will.
Finishing - an important part of creating.
Saturday, January 08, 2011
Internet Friends
In the last three weeks I've either had company or been company. At this very moment I am being company in the Crossroads of America. I feel so social. All but one set of friends is from the Internet. That's still not something I admit to when crossing International borders, but other than that I'm quite proud of the fact that some of my best friends were met over the web.
Web. It connects us. And some of us were meant to be connected. I was telling my friend's niece that while her uncle and I met online through a writer's blog, our connection was so much bigger than any two people. There are many similarities in family histories, parental backgrounds, birthplaces and interests. My nephew is friends with her cousin. My mum and her granny have connected. Her aunts are precious to me and her uncle's girlfriend reminds me of Stashaholic. We are two families who are essential to each other's lives and would never have met without the Internet.
I would never have gone to Scotland - twice, if I hadn't made friends online. Same writer's blog (it was a goldmine of durable and enduring friendships), different people. But no less precious. My 2011 began with fresh air, lots of laughter and a powerful feeling of goodwill thanks to the 24 karat company.
My other friend wasn't actually company. We met for a 4 3/4 hour lunch in Toronto at Dessert Trends. The website doesn't tell you how fantastic the service is, how gracious the owners are or that it can accommodate a wheelchair without detracting from the decor. We laughed, talked fashion, friends, work, life. With one of us living in San Fransisco(not me) we don't get to spend much time together in person but we do talk every day.
When I traveled to London, it was to help another friend unpack. Her family had recently moved there from my hometown and I wanted to help put her son's playroom together. His four year old perspective on the world fascinates me. These friends were made the old-fashioned way, through another Real Life friend. But I was able to introduce this friend to another one of my old-fashioned friends who already lives in London. The second friend and I had lost touch many years ago but, she found me through Facebook. I'll be ever grateful for that as we grew up together, weathered some horrific storms together and can now lounge on the beach drinking margaritas if we so wish.
It's been lovely to spend actual in-the-same-room time with my friends from the Internet. We continue to spin out as many connections, ever leading off to more adventures and adding more strings to our web.
There's still something magical about getting a handwritten letter in the mailbox at your front door, but when friends are on the other side of the world, it's good to be able to talk to them instantly(provided you can navigate time zones).
I've been blessed to be able to bring my imaginary friends into the real world.
Web. It connects us. And some of us were meant to be connected. I was telling my friend's niece that while her uncle and I met online through a writer's blog, our connection was so much bigger than any two people. There are many similarities in family histories, parental backgrounds, birthplaces and interests. My nephew is friends with her cousin. My mum and her granny have connected. Her aunts are precious to me and her uncle's girlfriend reminds me of Stashaholic. We are two families who are essential to each other's lives and would never have met without the Internet.
I would never have gone to Scotland - twice, if I hadn't made friends online. Same writer's blog (it was a goldmine of durable and enduring friendships), different people. But no less precious. My 2011 began with fresh air, lots of laughter and a powerful feeling of goodwill thanks to the 24 karat company.
My other friend wasn't actually company. We met for a 4 3/4 hour lunch in Toronto at Dessert Trends. The website doesn't tell you how fantastic the service is, how gracious the owners are or that it can accommodate a wheelchair without detracting from the decor. We laughed, talked fashion, friends, work, life. With one of us living in San Fransisco(not me) we don't get to spend much time together in person but we do talk every day.
When I traveled to London, it was to help another friend unpack. Her family had recently moved there from my hometown and I wanted to help put her son's playroom together. His four year old perspective on the world fascinates me. These friends were made the old-fashioned way, through another Real Life friend. But I was able to introduce this friend to another one of my old-fashioned friends who already lives in London. The second friend and I had lost touch many years ago but, she found me through Facebook. I'll be ever grateful for that as we grew up together, weathered some horrific storms together and can now lounge on the beach drinking margaritas if we so wish.
It's been lovely to spend actual in-the-same-room time with my friends from the Internet. We continue to spin out as many connections, ever leading off to more adventures and adding more strings to our web.
There's still something magical about getting a handwritten letter in the mailbox at your front door, but when friends are on the other side of the world, it's good to be able to talk to them instantly(provided you can navigate time zones).
I've been blessed to be able to bring my imaginary friends into the real world.
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Light
Whether you're celebrating Jewish Festival of Lights, Hanukkah; the return of the Sun, Winter Solstice; of the birth of the Son and the Star that heralded His arrival, Christmas -
May all that you consider holy, bless you with Light and warmth throughout the dark, winter nights
May all that you consider holy, bless you with Light and warmth throughout the dark, winter nights
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Ebooks
As you know, I don't have an e-reader. I've looked at three which are owned by different friends. None of them thrilled me (the readers, not the friends).I think it might be the e-ink. I've come to expect a certain level of brightness from handheld devices. I installed a pdf reader on my phone but the screen was too small to accommodate my need for larger font. I spent several hours at the airport scanning the pages back and forth while I tried to read an e-book.
In the end, I've resorted to reading on my laptop. Not ideal but it has a tad more flexibility than the desktop computer. My laptop is six years old and weighs as much as a small child. It's not exactly conducive to a quiet read in bed before sleep.
If it's all that much hassle, why bother with e-books, then? Because both Bob Mayer and Christine Merrill have books available in that format only. As their books are well crafted, exciting page-turners I refuse to let technology keep me from my entertainment.
The links take you to two books that have kept me in front of my computer screen, jonesing at work and suffering eyestrain in the airport because they were compelling reads. Isn't that what all readers want, regardless of format?
Happy reading!
In the end, I've resorted to reading on my laptop. Not ideal but it has a tad more flexibility than the desktop computer. My laptop is six years old and weighs as much as a small child. It's not exactly conducive to a quiet read in bed before sleep.
If it's all that much hassle, why bother with e-books, then? Because both Bob Mayer and Christine Merrill have books available in that format only. As their books are well crafted, exciting page-turners I refuse to let technology keep me from my entertainment.
The links take you to two books that have kept me in front of my computer screen, jonesing at work and suffering eyestrain in the airport because they were compelling reads. Isn't that what all readers want, regardless of format?
Happy reading!
Sunday, December 05, 2010
Actively listen
A couple of weeks ago, I posted a challenge on Facebook to all of my friends. Spend the day listening to someone with a differing opinion from your own. Sit quietly and actively listen to what they have to say. Get a solid idea of their position and reasoning.
As long as we focus on our differences, from petty to significant, we'll never find a way to resolve our issues. That includes personal and global.
I see so many people arguing or ignoring another opinion or suggestion simply because of the person who is speaking. They're missing out on some valid arguments that way.
I received more feedback about my experiment in real time than I did online. My DB and DN had an amazing conversation without its usual loud sighing or verbal blasts of incomprehension. It was healthy and respectful. Other people told me they had engaged in similar conversations, read newspapers with a different political slant than their own or observed a religious practice with which they were unfamiliar or a culture that made them uncomfortable. Someone even suggested we try to make it an International Day of Observing How the Other Side Lives but the title was too unwieldy.
I'm throwing that challenge out to the blogosphere. Spend the next few days listening to what people say. Throw aside your prejudices and preconceived notions. Ignore your expectations.
Listen.
You don't know what you will hear but it might change the world if we all do it.
As long as we focus on our differences, from petty to significant, we'll never find a way to resolve our issues. That includes personal and global.
I see so many people arguing or ignoring another opinion or suggestion simply because of the person who is speaking. They're missing out on some valid arguments that way.
I received more feedback about my experiment in real time than I did online. My DB and DN had an amazing conversation without its usual loud sighing or verbal blasts of incomprehension. It was healthy and respectful. Other people told me they had engaged in similar conversations, read newspapers with a different political slant than their own or observed a religious practice with which they were unfamiliar or a culture that made them uncomfortable. Someone even suggested we try to make it an International Day of Observing How the Other Side Lives but the title was too unwieldy.
I'm throwing that challenge out to the blogosphere. Spend the next few days listening to what people say. Throw aside your prejudices and preconceived notions. Ignore your expectations.
Listen.
You don't know what you will hear but it might change the world if we all do it.
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Farm Memories
I had a brilliant post written in my head for today but with all of the computer issues I've had, I decided to share this photograph with you instead. It's the view my great-grandmother would have seen every single day of her early life. Those aren't the same sheep but the tree to the right is far older than she would be if Granny was still alive.
Many thanks to Theresa for taking me there a few weeks ago
Many thanks to Theresa for taking me there a few weeks ago
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Love
I've been thinking a lot about love lately. We have a tendency to quantify and qualify our love. We rate it. We love our kids more than our spouses who we love more than our parents who we love more than our pets.We'd die for them in one order or another dependent on how we value their status in our lives.
Love is love. It grows, expands, fills holes, heals wounds and enriches our lives. Who are we to say how one should value those we love? Why do we evaluate it? I might save the dog and kid before the spouse but only because I have an expectation that the adults can save themselves. I don't love my niece more than my nephew because she's a girl or consider Stashaholic* a better friend than McB* because I've known her longer. I love all four of them. No qualifications or comparisons necessary.
Do we love based on gender, religion, politics? I love my friends whose politics who send me recoiling in fear. I love my friends whose religious beliefs demand they convert/kill/ostracize me for my different beliefs. I love the dog who turns himself inside out with joy whenever I enter the room. I love the cat who draws blood when he skitters away in fear. Mutual affection clearly doesn't influence my ability to love another being.
I continue to love my grandparents and great-grandparents long after their deaths. I continue to love friends and lovers who are no longer part of my life. Their love and mine for them continues to fill my heart regardless of their presence.
Love is eternal, not constricted by physical limitations, convention or even the act of living.
Love is everywhere.
Plants and animals grow and thrive in healthy, loving environments. The same is true for humans. But love survives and grows in environments where conditions are less than ideal. How many abused children grow into loving parents? More than convention would suggest. Time and again I've watched abused animals respond to patience and love. It exists inside them all. The only lesson required is how to express it.
Hate and fear are no excuse for responding in kind. I used to tell my nephew a story about defeating monsters with a kiss. It was a nice little fairy tale to deflate the monster beneath the bed. Then Monsters, Inc came out and suddenly I was a genius.
A recent episode of MI5 featured an asset turning the terrorist away from his "destiny" by focusing on the love in his life, in his culture, rather than the hate he'd been fed.
Both examples are of fiction but they were timely reminders for me. The world is not black and white, love and hate, good versus evil. There are many shades of all in each of us. It's the choices we make to honour one over the other that make us.
I choose love - in all of its many forms.
*To prove my point about qualifying, I feel the need to mention that I picked those two because they both have their aliases out on the Internet not because they come to mind faster than any of my other friends :)
Love is love. It grows, expands, fills holes, heals wounds and enriches our lives. Who are we to say how one should value those we love? Why do we evaluate it? I might save the dog and kid before the spouse but only because I have an expectation that the adults can save themselves. I don't love my niece more than my nephew because she's a girl or consider Stashaholic* a better friend than McB* because I've known her longer. I love all four of them. No qualifications or comparisons necessary.
Do we love based on gender, religion, politics? I love my friends whose politics who send me recoiling in fear. I love my friends whose religious beliefs demand they convert/kill/ostracize me for my different beliefs. I love the dog who turns himself inside out with joy whenever I enter the room. I love the cat who draws blood when he skitters away in fear. Mutual affection clearly doesn't influence my ability to love another being.
I continue to love my grandparents and great-grandparents long after their deaths. I continue to love friends and lovers who are no longer part of my life. Their love and mine for them continues to fill my heart regardless of their presence.
Love is eternal, not constricted by physical limitations, convention or even the act of living.
Love is everywhere.
Plants and animals grow and thrive in healthy, loving environments. The same is true for humans. But love survives and grows in environments where conditions are less than ideal. How many abused children grow into loving parents? More than convention would suggest. Time and again I've watched abused animals respond to patience and love. It exists inside them all. The only lesson required is how to express it.
Hate and fear are no excuse for responding in kind. I used to tell my nephew a story about defeating monsters with a kiss. It was a nice little fairy tale to deflate the monster beneath the bed. Then Monsters, Inc came out and suddenly I was a genius.
A recent episode of MI5 featured an asset turning the terrorist away from his "destiny" by focusing on the love in his life, in his culture, rather than the hate he'd been fed.
Both examples are of fiction but they were timely reminders for me. The world is not black and white, love and hate, good versus evil. There are many shades of all in each of us. It's the choices we make to honour one over the other that make us.
I choose love - in all of its many forms.
*To prove my point about qualifying, I feel the need to mention that I picked those two because they both have their aliases out on the Internet not because they come to mind faster than any of my other friends :)
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Sunday, November 07, 2010
Nothing beats onsite research
A time or two in the past, I may have mentioned the importance of walking the terrain. Characters come alive when you can visualize them in the exact setting. Your ability to describe that setting is greatly enhanced by actually walking that ground, inhaling the scents, feeling the breeze, listening to the ambient sound.
As you know, I've been busy for some time with my schooling, Casey's therapy and the book about that. Hell to Pay was put aside. I'll be digging it back out very soon so that I can polish it up and send it out.
Yesterday I went for a walk along the Hermitage in Dunkeld, Scotland. Yep. Scotland. Bracken and Nea are both from there. I've been drawn to that area for many years and a friend's photo of the terrain surrounding The Hermitage inspired a major turning point in Alex and Nea's relationship.
As soon I put foot on the trail, I was back inside that story. I could picture Bracken peering at me from behind the rocks. At one point, I felt hundreds of eyes staring at us. The gentle shush shush of our boots through the fallen leaves seemed to whisper thank you at one point. The roar of the falls gave way to the splash of water drops upon the trees.
Our journey through the woods yielded many bits of information I would never have gathered without using my own senses. The bracken and birch didn't grow side by side as often as my research had suggested. The paths and viewing benches may have been man-made but the forest had painted them with all the colours in nature's pallet. Moss danced across the forest floor, over the rocks and up the trees. The air was fresh, bracing in its purity.
And through it all the story played out in my head.
As you know, I've been busy for some time with my schooling, Casey's therapy and the book about that. Hell to Pay was put aside. I'll be digging it back out very soon so that I can polish it up and send it out.
Yesterday I went for a walk along the Hermitage in Dunkeld, Scotland. Yep. Scotland. Bracken and Nea are both from there. I've been drawn to that area for many years and a friend's photo of the terrain surrounding The Hermitage inspired a major turning point in Alex and Nea's relationship.
As soon I put foot on the trail, I was back inside that story. I could picture Bracken peering at me from behind the rocks. At one point, I felt hundreds of eyes staring at us. The gentle shush shush of our boots through the fallen leaves seemed to whisper thank you at one point. The roar of the falls gave way to the splash of water drops upon the trees.
Our journey through the woods yielded many bits of information I would never have gathered without using my own senses. The bracken and birch didn't grow side by side as often as my research had suggested. The paths and viewing benches may have been man-made but the forest had painted them with all the colours in nature's pallet. Moss danced across the forest floor, over the rocks and up the trees. The air was fresh, bracing in its purity.
And through it all the story played out in my head.
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Happy Halloween
I always wanted a baby elephant...
this was the best Ky the long-suffering dog could do about that. He was just a baby at the time
this was the best Ky the long-suffering dog could do about that. He was just a baby at the time
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Mystery pic
Oops. I was busy making memories with my darling niece this weekend and forgot all about the time.
Can you guess what this is a picture of?
It's a glass construction block. You could build an entryway, counter or patio with them. My nephew was selling some for us on kijiji and needed a good picture. Then I started playing with them to make some interesting effects. We didn't sell a single one but I had fun.
Can you guess what this is a picture of?
It's a glass construction block. You could build an entryway, counter or patio with them. My nephew was selling some for us on kijiji and needed a good picture. Then I started playing with them to make some interesting effects. We didn't sell a single one but I had fun.
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Chilean miners disprove Lord of the Flies Theory
A great deal of fiction (The Stand, Lord of the Flies, The Experiment, Survivor) purport that in the face of catastrophy or bare bones survival, man will turn on himself until only one remains.
I think the 33 men stuck in the Chilean mine for 69 days proved that all wrong. Not only did they work together to ensure the group's survival but they surpassed their individual abilities to emerge triumphant in spirit as well as body. Apparently, they've hired an accountant to create a fund in which to place the profits from the telling of their experiences so that each man, from the quietest to the most exuberant, will share the wealth.
Take that William Golding.
I think the 33 men stuck in the Chilean mine for 69 days proved that all wrong. Not only did they work together to ensure the group's survival but they surpassed their individual abilities to emerge triumphant in spirit as well as body. Apparently, they've hired an accountant to create a fund in which to place the profits from the telling of their experiences so that each man, from the quietest to the most exuberant, will share the wealth.
Take that William Golding.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
Attraction
A few posts ago I mentioned watercolours and Miz Elen said they were one of her favourite art expressions. Go look at her header then come back and compare it to this splash I created twenty years ago.
They're not exactly the twins I thought they were but it's hardly a surprise we're drawn to similar looks. Just as Stashaholic mentioned she was researching e-Readers at the same time as I wrote a blog about them, these coincidences can only mean one thing. We are attracted to people through common interests. Admittedly, I didn't know Elen liked Motown and watercolours when we first began our interaction but as the friendship has developed we've introduced each other to new things (Mad Men) as well as sharing others (MI5). The more you get to know someone, the more you learn you have in common.
I'm going to try applying that homily to random strangers who pique my interest. I wonder if instant attraction can be attributed to a deeper understanding of individuals that is intuited on a cellular level...
They're not exactly the twins I thought they were but it's hardly a surprise we're drawn to similar looks. Just as Stashaholic mentioned she was researching e-Readers at the same time as I wrote a blog about them, these coincidences can only mean one thing. We are attracted to people through common interests. Admittedly, I didn't know Elen liked Motown and watercolours when we first began our interaction but as the friendship has developed we've introduced each other to new things (Mad Men) as well as sharing others (MI5). The more you get to know someone, the more you learn you have in common.
I'm going to try applying that homily to random strangers who pique my interest. I wonder if instant attraction can be attributed to a deeper understanding of individuals that is intuited on a cellular level...
Sunday, October 03, 2010
Spinning
Sitting down behind the wheel can be very therapeutic and meditative. It can also be frustrating as hell when you fight the fibre. That's easy enough to do when the brain cells are spinning faster than the wheel. Still, there's something about the shape and wood together that always makes me smile.
I came across these three lovelies at the Pioneer festivities yesterday. They were tucked into the corner, almost an afterthought while hand-painted glasses and dried flowers had bigger displays. That's okay. Spinning isn't for everyone.
For those who do enjoy working with fibre and yarn, I'm happy to say The Fibre Garden celebrated their first anniversary. Stashaholic and I are doing our best to keep them in business for many years to come.
I came across these three lovelies at the Pioneer festivities yesterday. They were tucked into the corner, almost an afterthought while hand-painted glasses and dried flowers had bigger displays. That's okay. Spinning isn't for everyone.
For those who do enjoy working with fibre and yarn, I'm happy to say The Fibre Garden celebrated their first anniversary. Stashaholic and I are doing our best to keep them in business for many years to come.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
E-books
At the beginning of August, the publishing world was a-Twitter over the news that a major publisher had dropped mass market publishing in favour of e-books. Apparently ebooks account for 12% of their sales and that number is expected to increase dramatically.
Let's just see if I, a financial imbecile, understand this correctly. They threw away 88% of their market in order to increase 12%??? Is there a good reason they couldn't do both? How much does it cost to produce an e-book? Why does it cost almost the same to purchase an e-book as it does to buy a paperback?
Then there are the e-book readers. One of my friends loves her Kindle. The convenience of several books contained within the lightweight and portable mechanism is important to her. Most of her traveling is done with a backpack.
Another friend likes her Kindle well enough. She was one of the people who had a book deleted from her device when Amazon chose to no longer do business with an author. While it's true that no one who buys an ebook actually purchases the book, just the right to read it, that practice alone makes me think long and hard about e-readers. Digital rights are not the same as print rights. Borders and Chapters don't come into my home and remove books off my shelf when the author is de-listed. Without my personal information, they don't recommend other books to me either. I don't want my reading habits to be scrutinized by anyone other than myself.
The e-book readers themselves are confusing. They all seem to follow different rules so if you buy an e-book from one place, you might not be able to view it unless you have a specific device. It's like iTunes. It took me awhile to be able to play music I purchased there anywhere other than my laptop. I have since figured out the conversions but why did I have to?
Don't get me wrong. I have several .pdf files of books from authors I like who publish in that format. It seems to be a very creative branch of publishing with a lot of editors willing to take a chance on new authors. I would likely try more new writers that way if I could read them more comfortably.
For now, I'm going to stick with my trusty paperbacks. I like the rustle of the pages being turned, the slight scent of pulp and the heft of the spine. Just to prove I'm not a complete dinosaur, once I find the app for my Blackberry, I'll download it so I can read e-books on that format. It doesn't require a major expenditure on top of the book's purchase price.
Until such time as it becomes more convenient, comfortable and a loss less expensive to convert, I'll remain one of the 88% still reading mass market. What about you? Convince me.
****There is some great information in the comments. Some helpful stuff.
I was able to view my pdf files in my browser window on my phone. That's great for her but won't do me much good on the plane when I need to turn it off so I'll likely take a trusty paperback.
Our library ebook software only supports three readers so that didn't seem like a good source for me to pursue.
My other concern is my propensity to spill things. Paper can be blotted. Electronics get fried.
I really don't understand the price of ebooks. Why aren't they significantly less expensive?
I'm not in one camp or another. I think there's clearly a market, and place, for both. But to bail on 88% of your customers makes no sense to me at all.
Let's just see if I, a financial imbecile, understand this correctly. They threw away 88% of their market in order to increase 12%??? Is there a good reason they couldn't do both? How much does it cost to produce an e-book? Why does it cost almost the same to purchase an e-book as it does to buy a paperback?
Then there are the e-book readers. One of my friends loves her Kindle. The convenience of several books contained within the lightweight and portable mechanism is important to her. Most of her traveling is done with a backpack.
Another friend likes her Kindle well enough. She was one of the people who had a book deleted from her device when Amazon chose to no longer do business with an author. While it's true that no one who buys an ebook actually purchases the book, just the right to read it, that practice alone makes me think long and hard about e-readers. Digital rights are not the same as print rights. Borders and Chapters don't come into my home and remove books off my shelf when the author is de-listed. Without my personal information, they don't recommend other books to me either. I don't want my reading habits to be scrutinized by anyone other than myself.
The e-book readers themselves are confusing. They all seem to follow different rules so if you buy an e-book from one place, you might not be able to view it unless you have a specific device. It's like iTunes. It took me awhile to be able to play music I purchased there anywhere other than my laptop. I have since figured out the conversions but why did I have to?
Don't get me wrong. I have several .pdf files of books from authors I like who publish in that format. It seems to be a very creative branch of publishing with a lot of editors willing to take a chance on new authors. I would likely try more new writers that way if I could read them more comfortably.
For now, I'm going to stick with my trusty paperbacks. I like the rustle of the pages being turned, the slight scent of pulp and the heft of the spine. Just to prove I'm not a complete dinosaur, once I find the app for my Blackberry, I'll download it so I can read e-books on that format. It doesn't require a major expenditure on top of the book's purchase price.
Until such time as it becomes more convenient, comfortable and a loss less expensive to convert, I'll remain one of the 88% still reading mass market. What about you? Convince me.
****There is some great information in the comments. Some helpful stuff.
I was able to view my pdf files in my browser window on my phone. That's great for her but won't do me much good on the plane when I need to turn it off so I'll likely take a trusty paperback.
Our library ebook software only supports three readers so that didn't seem like a good source for me to pursue.
My other concern is my propensity to spill things. Paper can be blotted. Electronics get fried.
I really don't understand the price of ebooks. Why aren't they significantly less expensive?
I'm not in one camp or another. I think there's clearly a market, and place, for both. But to bail on 88% of your customers makes no sense to me at all.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Creativity
I always wanted to be a dancer. My mom used to load the stereo with 5 soundtrack LPs and we'd dance around the house while we cleaned. It was productive if not exactly efficient. I can remember re-enacting the Sharks vs Jets from West Side Story all by myself with hay bales standing in for the concrete jungle. Alas, my ankles weren't built for that kind of movement.
I went to art school for three years. Our focus was oil painting but I loved the soft flowing lines of watercolours. A couple of my pencil sketches won first prize at the local art show but there are days when I can't even draw a stick figure. It's a fickle medium for me. How does the talent disappear suddenly one day only to reappear several years later? I couldn't count on it to make a living.
So I turned to photography. Cinematography actually. I aced all of the photography courses but somehow still got shuffled into "female" production roles. I'm a good organizer and wasn't afraid to keep everyone in line and on deadline. Every once in a while I'd manage to sneak in a few shoots operating the camera but less often than I would have preferred.
I wrote all the time. I may possibly have been born with a pencil in my hand. I wrote stories about my paintings, narrative for the films and built worlds around photographs. I wrote short stories, plays and eventually novels.One day I decided to focus more on the words than the pictures.
There's been an internal shift the last couple of years. I've continued to write ( notes and scenes on the sweater book still pepper my desk) but it's lost a lot of its joy. I've lost my joy. Stuff has happened and I'm not shaking it off the way I used to do when I was lo so much younger. Nothing earth shattering ,just a mild erosion that I only started to notice when my toes were dangling off the edge of the cliff.
I'm taking a few steps back. Allowing my creativity to flow in other forms. I still think like a writer. I still take notes and make observations. Narrative runs through my head constantly. I'm just not wrestling any of it into a defined format.
I'm allowed to do this. I don't have a contract. I don't have a deadline. The only goal I have write now is to breathe - slowly, surely and repeatedly. Once I'm centered and secure, I'll give all that creativity a form and let it loose again on the world.
In the meantime, you might be stuck with random thoughts, a few photos and who knows, perhaps even a sketch or two. Enjoy
I went to art school for three years. Our focus was oil painting but I loved the soft flowing lines of watercolours. A couple of my pencil sketches won first prize at the local art show but there are days when I can't even draw a stick figure. It's a fickle medium for me. How does the talent disappear suddenly one day only to reappear several years later? I couldn't count on it to make a living.
So I turned to photography. Cinematography actually. I aced all of the photography courses but somehow still got shuffled into "female" production roles. I'm a good organizer and wasn't afraid to keep everyone in line and on deadline. Every once in a while I'd manage to sneak in a few shoots operating the camera but less often than I would have preferred.
I wrote all the time. I may possibly have been born with a pencil in my hand. I wrote stories about my paintings, narrative for the films and built worlds around photographs. I wrote short stories, plays and eventually novels.One day I decided to focus more on the words than the pictures.
There's been an internal shift the last couple of years. I've continued to write ( notes and scenes on the sweater book still pepper my desk) but it's lost a lot of its joy. I've lost my joy. Stuff has happened and I'm not shaking it off the way I used to do when I was lo so much younger. Nothing earth shattering ,just a mild erosion that I only started to notice when my toes were dangling off the edge of the cliff.
I'm taking a few steps back. Allowing my creativity to flow in other forms. I still think like a writer. I still take notes and make observations. Narrative runs through my head constantly. I'm just not wrestling any of it into a defined format.
I'm allowed to do this. I don't have a contract. I don't have a deadline. The only goal I have write now is to breathe - slowly, surely and repeatedly. Once I'm centered and secure, I'll give all that creativity a form and let it loose again on the world.
In the meantime, you might be stuck with random thoughts, a few photos and who knows, perhaps even a sketch or two. Enjoy
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Social Networks
Yesterday a friend of mine asked me to explain Twitter to her. I failed miserably. So many of my writer friends use it, not only to promote their books but, also to keep up with the latest publishing trends. I've tried following along but get hopelessly lost. Nor have I mastered the art of commenting on a link I post.
Add in the fact that I haven't got much to promote, and nothing different or unique to say abou the latest publishing trend, I remain silent.
Facebook, on the other hand, is my network of choice. I know my audience, it's personal, and I can share photos. I can follow not only my comments but those that come after mine. I'm always aware of the multitude of relationships and keep my privacy settings to friends only. Still, nothing gets said there that I wouldn't want the rest of the world to know about.
So many dear friendships have grown through the use of the comment window on blogs that I will always have a deep fondness for that medium. I've learned a great deal about writing, perseverance, and life through the blogs I follow. Some of them have truly surprised me.
What's your preferred method of communication and why?
Add in the fact that I haven't got much to promote, and nothing different or unique to say abou the latest publishing trend, I remain silent.
Facebook, on the other hand, is my network of choice. I know my audience, it's personal, and I can share photos. I can follow not only my comments but those that come after mine. I'm always aware of the multitude of relationships and keep my privacy settings to friends only. Still, nothing gets said there that I wouldn't want the rest of the world to know about.
So many dear friendships have grown through the use of the comment window on blogs that I will always have a deep fondness for that medium. I've learned a great deal about writing, perseverance, and life through the blogs I follow. Some of them have truly surprised me.
What's your preferred method of communication and why?
Sunday, September 05, 2010
Connect the dots
August was a very social month for me. It started with a wonderful group of online friends who came to visit for an extended weekend. I never thought I could fit ten people in my living room but we did it. Yoda was a fairly quiet bird during that time. I think he was soaking up all the conversation because once the company left he chattered for days.
One of the recurring conversations we had that weekend was about storytelling versus craft. While not all of my friends are writers, they are all big readers who know what they like and why. There are some big name highly successful writers out there who are a lacking in the craft department but can tell a tale like nobody's business. We are all willing to forgive many flaws if we're entertained.
Last weekend I was visiting Miz Elen and had a similar conversation. We're both of the opinion that good writing only improves good storytelling. She introduced me to season one of Mad Men. It's sharp, witty, has great dialogue and is a tad less paranoid than my beloved MI5.
Stashaholic came for a visit on the last day of the month. Because we started our viewing with MI5 we expected a character on Mad Men to resolve a conflict with a gun. Not the most relaxing way to wait out a tropical storm. We switched to a WKRP in Cincinnati marathon. There were moments of sheer hysteria. I couldn't catch my breath from laughing so hard. Perhaps it's the fact that Stash and I met at broadcasting college or the fact that we knew a few Herb Tarleks and Les Nessmans or maybe the writing is that good but we laughed til our sides hurt. It was a touch disturbing when Yoda laughed through the Turkey Drop episode.
What those televisions shows had in common with wonderful visits with good friends was stimulating dialogue. On all three weekends I had the opportunity to take part in conversations that ranged from how to save the world ( mandatory naps) to the price of yarn in Jordan (who cares! it's gorgeous, take two) and all points in between. It's interesting to see how a variety of disparate political views can be heard and respected when there's affection between all the parties. I lay in bed one morning after an interesting evening discussing the state of the world with Elen. My mind alternated between how to resolve the holy wars and designing a shawl. Somehow I don't think knitting prayer shawls for the religious leaders would do it yet it's fascinating how our minds connect the dots sometimes.
As a writer we do that all the time - take random events and connect them. It's a big rule - if it shows up in one part of the work, it better show up somewhere else. I think that blows the punchline sometimes. The world is random and full of coincidence. Life does not always make sense. I suspect that's the appeal of MI5 for me. Characters die, disappear or are fired as would happen in real life. While most fiction is an escape, and I want such over-the-top silliness as WKRP provides, there needs to be an element of realism. I recognize those characters. Every radio station has a Dr. Johnny Fever, and Andy Travis and a Mr. Carlson. The world of advertising is creative and cut-throat. You never know when the Intelligence Services have done their jobs and kept the public safe. Good storytelling breaks a few rules.
The only rule when it comes to great conversations is to listen to each other and see where that takes you. If you're blessed with friends like mine, they will make you laugh, tilt your head in confusion and most of all consider another angle entirely. Prayer shawls for everyone.
One of the recurring conversations we had that weekend was about storytelling versus craft. While not all of my friends are writers, they are all big readers who know what they like and why. There are some big name highly successful writers out there who are a lacking in the craft department but can tell a tale like nobody's business. We are all willing to forgive many flaws if we're entertained.
Last weekend I was visiting Miz Elen and had a similar conversation. We're both of the opinion that good writing only improves good storytelling. She introduced me to season one of Mad Men. It's sharp, witty, has great dialogue and is a tad less paranoid than my beloved MI5.
Stashaholic came for a visit on the last day of the month. Because we started our viewing with MI5 we expected a character on Mad Men to resolve a conflict with a gun. Not the most relaxing way to wait out a tropical storm. We switched to a WKRP in Cincinnati marathon. There were moments of sheer hysteria. I couldn't catch my breath from laughing so hard. Perhaps it's the fact that Stash and I met at broadcasting college or the fact that we knew a few Herb Tarleks and Les Nessmans or maybe the writing is that good but we laughed til our sides hurt. It was a touch disturbing when Yoda laughed through the Turkey Drop episode.
What those televisions shows had in common with wonderful visits with good friends was stimulating dialogue. On all three weekends I had the opportunity to take part in conversations that ranged from how to save the world ( mandatory naps) to the price of yarn in Jordan (who cares! it's gorgeous, take two) and all points in between. It's interesting to see how a variety of disparate political views can be heard and respected when there's affection between all the parties. I lay in bed one morning after an interesting evening discussing the state of the world with Elen. My mind alternated between how to resolve the holy wars and designing a shawl. Somehow I don't think knitting prayer shawls for the religious leaders would do it yet it's fascinating how our minds connect the dots sometimes.
As a writer we do that all the time - take random events and connect them. It's a big rule - if it shows up in one part of the work, it better show up somewhere else. I think that blows the punchline sometimes. The world is random and full of coincidence. Life does not always make sense. I suspect that's the appeal of MI5 for me. Characters die, disappear or are fired as would happen in real life. While most fiction is an escape, and I want such over-the-top silliness as WKRP provides, there needs to be an element of realism. I recognize those characters. Every radio station has a Dr. Johnny Fever, and Andy Travis and a Mr. Carlson. The world of advertising is creative and cut-throat. You never know when the Intelligence Services have done their jobs and kept the public safe. Good storytelling breaks a few rules.
The only rule when it comes to great conversations is to listen to each other and see where that takes you. If you're blessed with friends like mine, they will make you laugh, tilt your head in confusion and most of all consider another angle entirely. Prayer shawls for everyone.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Muse
If you're "waiting on the Muse to strike" you're not going to get much writing done. Inspiration happens in a flash then it's all hard work from there.
You sit your butt in the chair and write a little bit every day. The words accumulate, the story appears and the editing makes it all pretty. A Greek Goddess does not swoop down into your office and using a peacock feather hand write your novel in lovely flowing script. The best you can hope for is that she will whisper in your ear as she occasionally breezes through your life.
While I've never had writer's block (thank the Goddess) I have experienced burnout. Too many things going on, too many deadlines and not enough real life experiences that are vital to a rich writing life. I've taken a break or two, once a project is completed, to recharge. The longer I take to get back to the desk, the longer it takes to want to go back to a desk. I've learned to take a notebook and pencil out into the garden, carry one in my purse and utilize the voice recorder feature on my cell phone for those times when I'm driving and inspiration strikes.
There are other times when Real Life is so demanding that the writing suffers. It is physically impossible to make a day any longer than 24 hours. Choices must be made, and as writing doesn't currently pay my bills, it's going to have to take the infrequent back seat.
When that happens, I feel guilty as hell. Like I'm playing hooky from grade school, or smoking out back with the other 12 year olds. It's a knee jerk reaction that has to stop. Those breaks from writing are necessary. I need to renew my enthusiasm or gather more information, or address other concerns in my life.
I'll get back to the desk. Sooner rather than later because I've built up a good backlog of story ideas, filled several files with research, and created a strong writing routine that is dependent upon discipline, deadlines and chocolate.
You sit your butt in the chair and write a little bit every day. The words accumulate, the story appears and the editing makes it all pretty. A Greek Goddess does not swoop down into your office and using a peacock feather hand write your novel in lovely flowing script. The best you can hope for is that she will whisper in your ear as she occasionally breezes through your life.
While I've never had writer's block (thank the Goddess) I have experienced burnout. Too many things going on, too many deadlines and not enough real life experiences that are vital to a rich writing life. I've taken a break or two, once a project is completed, to recharge. The longer I take to get back to the desk, the longer it takes to want to go back to a desk. I've learned to take a notebook and pencil out into the garden, carry one in my purse and utilize the voice recorder feature on my cell phone for those times when I'm driving and inspiration strikes.
There are other times when Real Life is so demanding that the writing suffers. It is physically impossible to make a day any longer than 24 hours. Choices must be made, and as writing doesn't currently pay my bills, it's going to have to take the infrequent back seat.
When that happens, I feel guilty as hell. Like I'm playing hooky from grade school, or smoking out back with the other 12 year olds. It's a knee jerk reaction that has to stop. Those breaks from writing are necessary. I need to renew my enthusiasm or gather more information, or address other concerns in my life.
I'll get back to the desk. Sooner rather than later because I've built up a good backlog of story ideas, filled several files with research, and created a strong writing routine that is dependent upon discipline, deadlines and chocolate.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Bingo
I have so many thoughts juggling in my head right now it's like living inside the bingo machine on Thursday afternoons at the Senior Center.
I'm dreaming about the assignment that's due tomorrow for the adult collection course for the library certificate. Once that's done, I have to make a reading map for the other course.
The pond has a critical leak and needs to be taken apart and repaired.
Bathroom plumbing needs to be addressed. It's something that can be done casually and over a beer but still it's run on too long.
It's mid-August and Christmas presents need to be started.
Most of the feedback is waiting for me to implement it in Heal, Casey. There's a small window between these courses and the next in which I can finish that up and get it out. It's not going to get published from my desk.
Was it only last week that I was sitting beneath Nea's tree beside the falls and showing off Alex's haunts to some good friends? That was a fantastic day and really helped bring Hell to Pay back to the forefront of my mind. I tossed the revisions in a drawer months ago and never looked back.
How does that happen? See the above list. That's not the half of what needs to be done. How do some people do it all? I need to clone myself or find a second job so I can hire out the household stuff.
In the meantime, I'll do what I can, make notes of the random thoughts that might make good stories down the road and get back to it.
Just so you know it's not all drudgery and stress, this is one of the bingo balls. Sorry for borrowing your Richard, Miss Merry but MI5 is one of my latest obsessions.
I'm dreaming about the assignment that's due tomorrow for the adult collection course for the library certificate. Once that's done, I have to make a reading map for the other course.
The pond has a critical leak and needs to be taken apart and repaired.
Bathroom plumbing needs to be addressed. It's something that can be done casually and over a beer but still it's run on too long.
It's mid-August and Christmas presents need to be started.
Most of the feedback is waiting for me to implement it in Heal, Casey. There's a small window between these courses and the next in which I can finish that up and get it out. It's not going to get published from my desk.
Was it only last week that I was sitting beneath Nea's tree beside the falls and showing off Alex's haunts to some good friends? That was a fantastic day and really helped bring Hell to Pay back to the forefront of my mind. I tossed the revisions in a drawer months ago and never looked back.
How does that happen? See the above list. That's not the half of what needs to be done. How do some people do it all? I need to clone myself or find a second job so I can hire out the household stuff.
In the meantime, I'll do what I can, make notes of the random thoughts that might make good stories down the road and get back to it.
Just so you know it's not all drudgery and stress, this is one of the bingo balls. Sorry for borrowing your Richard, Miss Merry but MI5 is one of my latest obsessions.
Monday, August 02, 2010
Time Travel
I was too exhausted yesterday from all of my time traveling to put up a post when I got home last night.
It started within ten minutes of waking up when my nephew called and asked for a ride home from the campground 40 minutes from my house. I finished my breakfast, grabbed a towel, and headed out. First I drove through the little community that took me back six years when my friend and I would walk through Bubblegum Alley (so named after the colourfully decorated shops) and then down to the beach where we observed Mars one dark star-laden night.
Just a tad further down the road and it was more than 20 years ago where my boyfriend used to ride the wooden roller coaster that shot out over the lake. We'd go listen to bands in the crystal palace and I cried when they tore it down.
I barely recovered from that trip when I went back two years earlier when my friend and I, with barely two nickels to rub together between us, would pile in the car and drive to the beach. Singing our lungs out to Bela Lugosi's Dead, (not exactly easy to do), Strange Animall and Somebody . I dove into the Quarry and lost my $300 prescription sunglasses on the second day of owning them. No matter how often we went back, or how deep the guys dove, no one ever found them but somewhere I still have a great sketch of a red fish wearing pink glasses.
I picked the nephew up and asked him if he'd found my sunglasses all of these years later. The story only amuses him because it didn't happen to him. From there we drove twenty minutes towards the river and memories that are only 15 years old.
My apartment was so hot in the summer that I'd pack up a lunch,some water, fruit, the dog and my manuscript. We'd park ourselves along the river for the day. I'd attach the dog's chain to the cable that stuck out of the concrete slab at the water's edge. She'd bite the waves while I wrote. Sadly, both the dog and manuscript are long gone.
No more time traveling until after I dropped off the nephew and headed to my friend's further down the river. Despite the fact that I drive by the house repeatedly throughout the year, as I came up to my great-grandfather's house, I turned into a seven year old child - playing tiddlywinks on the dining room carpet and sucking on a butterscotch candy. The musty smell of the attic invaded my noses as we trudged up into the echoing cavern. We left with an old hatbox that to this day contains manuscripts.
As I drove into the village, time spun away from me. I could picture Grandpa arguing with the Parks employee who was appropriating Grandpa's land. Even though I wasn't even born for any of that, I could hear his firm voice and quiet chuckle when he won that battle and kept his land. Wily old fox.
I drove down into the village past the old general store, past the printer's and the barn where Sir Isaac Brock died. Surrounded by modern conveniences and antiques in my friend's historic home, the past and present merged to give me a headache. Her husband pulled out some treasures he'd recently discovered while metal detecting; buttons, pins and clasps. I marveled at a teacup designed to keep a man's moustache dry. Then time swirled around as I read the document legalizing a Mr. Owen's indenture to a Mr. Lloyd. Written on sheepskin and dated 25, June, 1812, it was in mint condition.
The mind is an interesting thing; the way it works. Because there were times during the day when those memories were stronger than my awareness of my current surroundings. I suppose that's part of what makes good writers; their ability to blur the line between imagination and reality - when characters come alive before your eyes; their thoughts and feelings as real as your own.
Time traveling wasn't on my agenda for yesterday but it was interesting. Even if I have some 80's song lyrics stuck in my head -and absolutely no idea the name of the song or artist. then we danced/shared a little romance/then we ??? You see the pitfalls.
Thanks to Me, I found this video for another 80's classic And we Danced
It started within ten minutes of waking up when my nephew called and asked for a ride home from the campground 40 minutes from my house. I finished my breakfast, grabbed a towel, and headed out. First I drove through the little community that took me back six years when my friend and I would walk through Bubblegum Alley (so named after the colourfully decorated shops) and then down to the beach where we observed Mars one dark star-laden night.
Just a tad further down the road and it was more than 20 years ago where my boyfriend used to ride the wooden roller coaster that shot out over the lake. We'd go listen to bands in the crystal palace and I cried when they tore it down.
I barely recovered from that trip when I went back two years earlier when my friend and I, with barely two nickels to rub together between us, would pile in the car and drive to the beach. Singing our lungs out to Bela Lugosi's Dead, (not exactly easy to do), Strange Animall and Somebody . I dove into the Quarry and lost my $300 prescription sunglasses on the second day of owning them. No matter how often we went back, or how deep the guys dove, no one ever found them but somewhere I still have a great sketch of a red fish wearing pink glasses.
I picked the nephew up and asked him if he'd found my sunglasses all of these years later. The story only amuses him because it didn't happen to him. From there we drove twenty minutes towards the river and memories that are only 15 years old.
My apartment was so hot in the summer that I'd pack up a lunch,some water, fruit, the dog and my manuscript. We'd park ourselves along the river for the day. I'd attach the dog's chain to the cable that stuck out of the concrete slab at the water's edge. She'd bite the waves while I wrote. Sadly, both the dog and manuscript are long gone.
No more time traveling until after I dropped off the nephew and headed to my friend's further down the river. Despite the fact that I drive by the house repeatedly throughout the year, as I came up to my great-grandfather's house, I turned into a seven year old child - playing tiddlywinks on the dining room carpet and sucking on a butterscotch candy. The musty smell of the attic invaded my noses as we trudged up into the echoing cavern. We left with an old hatbox that to this day contains manuscripts.
As I drove into the village, time spun away from me. I could picture Grandpa arguing with the Parks employee who was appropriating Grandpa's land. Even though I wasn't even born for any of that, I could hear his firm voice and quiet chuckle when he won that battle and kept his land. Wily old fox.
I drove down into the village past the old general store, past the printer's and the barn where Sir Isaac Brock died. Surrounded by modern conveniences and antiques in my friend's historic home, the past and present merged to give me a headache. Her husband pulled out some treasures he'd recently discovered while metal detecting; buttons, pins and clasps. I marveled at a teacup designed to keep a man's moustache dry. Then time swirled around as I read the document legalizing a Mr. Owen's indenture to a Mr. Lloyd. Written on sheepskin and dated 25, June, 1812, it was in mint condition.
The mind is an interesting thing; the way it works. Because there were times during the day when those memories were stronger than my awareness of my current surroundings. I suppose that's part of what makes good writers; their ability to blur the line between imagination and reality - when characters come alive before your eyes; their thoughts and feelings as real as your own.
Time traveling wasn't on my agenda for yesterday but it was interesting. Even if I have some 80's song lyrics stuck in my head -and absolutely no idea the name of the song or artist. then we danced/shared a little romance/then we ??? You see the pitfalls.
Thanks to Me, I found this video for another 80's classic And we Danced
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Even when it isn't, it's always about writing
I've read a few blogs lately that suggest writing blogs can't be about writing forever. There's only so much you can say about writing; readers don't want to hear about the process; it takes away from creating the book about which you're blogging.
I disagree for several reasons. This blog has been invaluable in helping me clarify plot points, characterization or meet deadlines. I receive plenty of emails about how sharing that process has encouraged readers to keep coming back (think special features on the the DVD) But the main reason I think writers can blog about writing indefinitely is that no matter what we're talking about, it's writing related.
We're writers. Everything in our life is filed away for future use. That doesn't mean that I mentally record every conversation or confidence so that I can plagiarize your life. I notice the body language that accompanies those confidences. I remember the cadence of your voice. I notice how weather, colours, food, music and scents evoke certain responses in different people. I listen.
When I'm out walking Ky or doing Casey's exercises, or swimming with the kids or exploring the gorge, my brain sorts through plot ideas. A perfect day with Stashaholic bred a book. I've put that project aside but it's interesting how many times a day I think of something to add to the ever expanding notebook I have for that particular book.
Writing takes place in our minds. We take our consciousness with us everywhere we go throughout our day. It's an essential requirement for all of our interactions. We can't get away from our own thoughts. Therefore no matter what I discuss on this blog, you can be sure in some way shape or form, it's related to my writing process.
Random posting about friends visiting from out of town - how do my characters interact with their communities? Do they hide from friends and coworkers, preferring to keep to their own company? Why? Are they gregarious, the life of the party, trying to drown out the screams of lonliness?
Random post about Yoda the Quaker Parakeet - do the characters have pets? Do they work with exotic animals? Do they empathize with the caged bird who refuses to come through the open door? Are they afraid to take control of their life?
Little of those thoughts end up spelled out so clearly in my final projects but they are all part of the process. Of course I steal from my own life when possible - Heal, Casey is an excellent case in point - but I also have a wicked imagination. My brain takes a little bit of this,(a photgraph taken by a friend) mixes it with a dash of that (a lifetime of listening to Scottish mythology), adds a soupcon of spice(the light and shadows in the photograph) and voila nymphs and demons in a pivotal scene from Hell to Pay. I grew up believing in nymphs, fairies, little people and magic. It didn't take much for me to extrapolate a story out of all that.
My blog will always be about writing - even when it reads like rambling about the weather (HOT! and HUMID) this summer, a review for BB's Robin Hood or junk drawers
Enjoy
I disagree for several reasons. This blog has been invaluable in helping me clarify plot points, characterization or meet deadlines. I receive plenty of emails about how sharing that process has encouraged readers to keep coming back (think special features on the the DVD) But the main reason I think writers can blog about writing indefinitely is that no matter what we're talking about, it's writing related.
We're writers. Everything in our life is filed away for future use. That doesn't mean that I mentally record every conversation or confidence so that I can plagiarize your life. I notice the body language that accompanies those confidences. I remember the cadence of your voice. I notice how weather, colours, food, music and scents evoke certain responses in different people. I listen.
When I'm out walking Ky or doing Casey's exercises, or swimming with the kids or exploring the gorge, my brain sorts through plot ideas. A perfect day with Stashaholic bred a book. I've put that project aside but it's interesting how many times a day I think of something to add to the ever expanding notebook I have for that particular book.
Writing takes place in our minds. We take our consciousness with us everywhere we go throughout our day. It's an essential requirement for all of our interactions. We can't get away from our own thoughts. Therefore no matter what I discuss on this blog, you can be sure in some way shape or form, it's related to my writing process.
Random posting about friends visiting from out of town - how do my characters interact with their communities? Do they hide from friends and coworkers, preferring to keep to their own company? Why? Are they gregarious, the life of the party, trying to drown out the screams of lonliness?
Random post about Yoda the Quaker Parakeet - do the characters have pets? Do they work with exotic animals? Do they empathize with the caged bird who refuses to come through the open door? Are they afraid to take control of their life?
Little of those thoughts end up spelled out so clearly in my final projects but they are all part of the process. Of course I steal from my own life when possible - Heal, Casey is an excellent case in point - but I also have a wicked imagination. My brain takes a little bit of this,(a photgraph taken by a friend) mixes it with a dash of that (a lifetime of listening to Scottish mythology), adds a soupcon of spice(the light and shadows in the photograph) and voila nymphs and demons in a pivotal scene from Hell to Pay. I grew up believing in nymphs, fairies, little people and magic. It didn't take much for me to extrapolate a story out of all that.
My blog will always be about writing - even when it reads like rambling about the weather (HOT! and HUMID) this summer, a review for BB's Robin Hood or junk drawers
Enjoy
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Writer insecurity
I finished Heal Casey this week and it's out to readers.
My stomach is queasy and I think every single word is crap.
That is normal.
The only control writers have over their work is the actual writing of it. After that, there's a score of people who take over; readers, agents, editors, more readers. It's scary to let go and trust others to recognize the brilliance of your creation. It's scary to pour yourself heart and soul onto the page for the world to read. It's scary to be so exposed and vulnerable knowing that not every word is perfect or golden. Someone somewhere is going to want some of those words changed. How many is my biggest concern.
I don't truly believe I'm a lousy writer. I'm simply nervous. I want to do this story justice and tell it in a way that moves people.
As I was writing this blog, one of my wonderful readers called to tell me how much she loved this book. Yes, it had a few problem areas but nothing that couldn't be easily tweaked. She cried all the way through the book, even though she knew the story and how it ended. I was able to move her, but what thrilled me most about her call, was that this story, on this day, helped her cope with some serious issues in her own life.
Yet again, Casey heals.
My stomach is queasy and I think every single word is crap.
That is normal.
The only control writers have over their work is the actual writing of it. After that, there's a score of people who take over; readers, agents, editors, more readers. It's scary to let go and trust others to recognize the brilliance of your creation. It's scary to pour yourself heart and soul onto the page for the world to read. It's scary to be so exposed and vulnerable knowing that not every word is perfect or golden. Someone somewhere is going to want some of those words changed. How many is my biggest concern.
I don't truly believe I'm a lousy writer. I'm simply nervous. I want to do this story justice and tell it in a way that moves people.
As I was writing this blog, one of my wonderful readers called to tell me how much she loved this book. Yes, it had a few problem areas but nothing that couldn't be easily tweaked. She cried all the way through the book, even though she knew the story and how it ended. I was able to move her, but what thrilled me most about her call, was that this story, on this day, helped her cope with some serious issues in her own life.
Yet again, Casey heals.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Stuck
I'm having some tense trauma.
In the last post you may have noticed that I used past tense all the time I discussed Sir Guy's past experiences. But when I switched to what he was going through in season 3 my tense use switched as well. Past/past present/present.I was aware of it and left it alone on purpose.
But now I'm stuck with Casey's story. Most of it is told in first person, present tense. I'm using journal entries as the basic format. I've filled in the blanks or expounded on ideas, described techniques and therapies in contemporary past tense. I've added photos in this draft as well but that doesn't involve as much hindsight as the narrative asides.
When reviewing it the other day, it read strange with the back and forth of the tenses.; So I switched to present tense for the narrative and used italics for the journal entries. Perhaps, I've read it both ways too often but, neither one feels right. The first chapter is all narrative and past tense so it's possible that's what's throwing me off. It feels wrong to use present tense there as none of us had the understanding and awareness in the beginning that could only come from looking back at the consequences of our actions.
Here are two examples. The first is present/past:
The second example is present/present:
So which do you prefer?
In the last post you may have noticed that I used past tense all the time I discussed Sir Guy's past experiences. But when I switched to what he was going through in season 3 my tense use switched as well. Past/past present/present.I was aware of it and left it alone on purpose.
But now I'm stuck with Casey's story. Most of it is told in first person, present tense. I'm using journal entries as the basic format. I've filled in the blanks or expounded on ideas, described techniques and therapies in contemporary past tense. I've added photos in this draft as well but that doesn't involve as much hindsight as the narrative asides.
When reviewing it the other day, it read strange with the back and forth of the tenses.; So I switched to present tense for the narrative and used italics for the journal entries. Perhaps, I've read it both ways too often but, neither one feels right. The first chapter is all narrative and past tense so it's possible that's what's throwing me off. It feels wrong to use present tense there as none of us had the understanding and awareness in the beginning that could only come from looking back at the consequences of our actions.
Here are two examples. The first is present/past:
As this was going to be a team effort, and to keep her both aware and involved, I asked Mom to keep a journal of the pup’s progress.His healing was her project, her idea and she’d fought hard to get him to us.I was concerned that she would feel left out once we’d gotten into the practical application of his therapies.Besides, he lived with her. She would be able to record more of his behaviour.
Mom’s Journal September 10/08
Casey joined us on September 9, 2008. He had his first appointment with Dr. Susanne Langdon who did an assessment and an adjustment. Dr. Langdon suggested that we contact Dr. Lisa Burgess, a veterinarian/acupuncturist for treatments which might improve the nerve damage in his leg. There is no feeling below the shoulder and Casey walks on his leg rather than his foot, with the leg bent upward. Moosonee Puppy Rescue’s vets decided the foot was fused backwards but Dr. Langdon says not so. Bones have not developed yet. The walking on his foot is a result of nerve damage to Casey’s leg. Dr. Langdon feels this may be correctable. Good news.
The second example is present/present:
Mom asked about his progress, mentioned Lisa’s prognosis of floppy foot forever. So Susanne brought out her reflex hammer. No real response. Out came the pizza cutter. He was so laid back – until she got to his baby toe (or that’s what it would be on a human foot anyway). The outside toe was sensitive. She ran it over that toe again and again from every angle and direction. It was the only toe to react but she felt the tendon contract every single time. He wasn’t all that aware of it but she said it was HUGE progress. Tomorrow we swim :)
Dad’s primary input into Casey’s therapies comes as the occasional driver, money man or hot tub assistant. The latter means he coaxes Casey out to the garage and the hot tub. Once I’m settled in the water, he hands the struggling pup over the side and into my arms. He also turns on the timer, hits the button for the jets and yells encouragement. Most of the time, he’s telling Casey to swim across Lake Ontario, chase the geese or head for shore.
So which do you prefer?
Sunday, July 04, 2010
More reasons for good back story
Several years ago, my friend Sage shared her obsession introduced me to the sheer entertainment that is BBC's Robin Hood. We're a year behind over here in North America but we've been buying the complete seasons when they've become available on DVD. It's good clean fun the entire family can enjoy together.
There have been times when the writers have dropped the ball, or completely rewritten the legend so you never quite know what you're going to get. Much has been made on the Internet of the Robin/Marian/Sir Guy love triangle. For some strange reason I was always rooting for the most heinous Sir Guy. Partly, no doubt, because of the brilliant acting and nuances that Richard Armitage brought to the role. Partly, also I think, because there was so much more to Sir Guy in this version than just the Sheriff's lackey.
SPOILER ALERT below:
You may remember my fascination with backstory and all the history behind a person's action. Never was that more evident than in season three as Sir Guy's motivations and life history were revealed. I always suspected he was not all bad, some of his scenes with Marian in season one hinted at his social ineptitude. His obsession with her was at times creepy and others oddly sweet. He truly loved her. I knew there had to be a reason that he could so easily twist her kindness towards him as a proclamation of love. Of course, she manipulated his emotions for her own well-being so some of his confusion, and inability to keep up, stemmed from her actions.
Finally, in season three, his past is slowly revealed, a sister returns, the existence of a brother is discovered. All that he thought he knew about himself and the world around him might all be wrong. As we see how past events shaped his decisions, and he experiences the truth of those events, he is faced with decisions about his future. While he can never atone for all of the lives he took, he can now see how far-reaching and wrong his actions were. He will never be trusted, his redemption incomplete but he moves forward armed with better information and a desire to if not right some wrongs then at least minimize any future damage.
Sir Guy was always a tortured and troubled soul. That doesn't change but he no longer subscribed to the life path that misery loves company. Had his back-story not been revealed, I doubt the viewer would have accepted the changes that took place within him.
The following video from episode nine is long, fan-made compilation but was the episode in which Guy's transformation solidified.
There have been times when the writers have dropped the ball, or completely rewritten the legend so you never quite know what you're going to get. Much has been made on the Internet of the Robin/Marian/Sir Guy love triangle. For some strange reason I was always rooting for the most heinous Sir Guy. Partly, no doubt, because of the brilliant acting and nuances that Richard Armitage brought to the role. Partly, also I think, because there was so much more to Sir Guy in this version than just the Sheriff's lackey.
SPOILER ALERT below:
You may remember my fascination with backstory and all the history behind a person's action. Never was that more evident than in season three as Sir Guy's motivations and life history were revealed. I always suspected he was not all bad, some of his scenes with Marian in season one hinted at his social ineptitude. His obsession with her was at times creepy and others oddly sweet. He truly loved her. I knew there had to be a reason that he could so easily twist her kindness towards him as a proclamation of love. Of course, she manipulated his emotions for her own well-being so some of his confusion, and inability to keep up, stemmed from her actions.
Finally, in season three, his past is slowly revealed, a sister returns, the existence of a brother is discovered. All that he thought he knew about himself and the world around him might all be wrong. As we see how past events shaped his decisions, and he experiences the truth of those events, he is faced with decisions about his future. While he can never atone for all of the lives he took, he can now see how far-reaching and wrong his actions were. He will never be trusted, his redemption incomplete but he moves forward armed with better information and a desire to if not right some wrongs then at least minimize any future damage.
Sir Guy was always a tortured and troubled soul. That doesn't change but he no longer subscribed to the life path that misery loves company. Had his back-story not been revealed, I doubt the viewer would have accepted the changes that took place within him.
The following video from episode nine is long, fan-made compilation but was the episode in which Guy's transformation solidified.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Motown Momma
Carlo is a 72 year old black man in a 20 year old white boy body.
In the more than five years I've known him, he's been a walking encyclopedia about Motown. From its biggest stars to more modest songwriter, Carlo can tell you who's who and why we should know them.
It's great fun to work with Carlo. We both have the 25th anniversary of Motown album. Mine's on vinyl and I bought it when it first came out. We both have Mary Wilson's autobiograpy Dreamgirl:My life as a Supreme. His is autographed.
A couple of weeks ago, we went to see Smokey Robinson in concert. Smokey's voice has only gained in strength and range over the years. He's added to his songlist, both as a singer and songwriter. He pulled off contemporary pieces that put the original artists to shame. I was deeply moved by his version of "Don't know why."
Watching Carlo at the concert though was its own experience. He was in his element. Element. There was nothing awkward or strange about his connection to the music or to the performer. I felt like I was seeing Carlo where he not only belonged, but thrived.
He's the poster boy for reincarnation.
His knowledge of Motown is well-known and recognized by other fans, most of them two to three times his age. When Mary Wilson was looking for someone to manage her website, she was given Carlo's name. He wasn't a complete unknown to her. She'd been looking for specific photographs several years ago, and Carlo had helped her find exactly what she was looking for. He took it out of his own collection.
I tell you all this,not only because I adore Carlo, but also because as writers it's all too easy to fall into stereotype. We hope our characters don't become two dimensional or cliche but we rarely look beneath the exterior to see what makes them truly unique. Not only is a Carlo a thoughtful, generous young man, his soul vibrates with the music of another time. Yet he's fully engaged in the here and now.He's found a way to make his passion contemporary.
Carlo is the webmaster for Mary Wilson.
In the more than five years I've known him, he's been a walking encyclopedia about Motown. From its biggest stars to more modest songwriter, Carlo can tell you who's who and why we should know them.
It's great fun to work with Carlo. We both have the 25th anniversary of Motown album. Mine's on vinyl and I bought it when it first came out. We both have Mary Wilson's autobiograpy Dreamgirl:My life as a Supreme. His is autographed.
A couple of weeks ago, we went to see Smokey Robinson in concert. Smokey's voice has only gained in strength and range over the years. He's added to his songlist, both as a singer and songwriter. He pulled off contemporary pieces that put the original artists to shame. I was deeply moved by his version of "Don't know why."
Watching Carlo at the concert though was its own experience. He was in his element. Element. There was nothing awkward or strange about his connection to the music or to the performer. I felt like I was seeing Carlo where he not only belonged, but thrived.
He's the poster boy for reincarnation.
His knowledge of Motown is well-known and recognized by other fans, most of them two to three times his age. When Mary Wilson was looking for someone to manage her website, she was given Carlo's name. He wasn't a complete unknown to her. She'd been looking for specific photographs several years ago, and Carlo had helped her find exactly what she was looking for. He took it out of his own collection.
I tell you all this,not only because I adore Carlo, but also because as writers it's all too easy to fall into stereotype. We hope our characters don't become two dimensional or cliche but we rarely look beneath the exterior to see what makes them truly unique. Not only is a Carlo a thoughtful, generous young man, his soul vibrates with the music of another time. Yet he's fully engaged in the here and now.He's found a way to make his passion contemporary.
Carlo is the webmaster for Mary Wilson.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Perseverance
We have a bad habit in this household of misjudging time.
We thought it would take a day or two to lay the sod and paving stones for the sidewalk. It took a total of six days spread out over three weeks.
We thought it would take months to adjust to all living together and it only took several weeks. I suspect it helps that we have separate apartments and can get away from each other.
We thought it would take a month or two (ok, only Mom was that optimistic) to heal Casey's leg. It's been 16 months and he's still in a brace. He's running around like a fool, chasing Ky, leaping for the ball and generally acting like a normal dog.
About a month ago, we hit a snag. His foot slid around in the brace. He limped all the time and held his leg up more often than not. We trained him to put his foot on the floor on command but the rest of the time there was a few inches of clearance between paw and ground. He couldn't seem to put it down unless it was a conscious effort.
I worried that the ligaments or tendons had shortened. It seemed like we had finally received good news about the strength of his shoulder muscles only to have balanced it with bad elsewhere. His brace was falling apart. The sole had to be glued on every other night because he scuffed it so much.
During one of his weekly swims, he hopped over to see Janice at Pawsability. Her initial assessment was that his leg hadn't changed. Once she watched him walk without his brace, something he does with increasing frequency, she realized something important.
The little brown dog with the turned in foot had grown into a large brown dog with a straight leg.
After 16 long months, Casey's leg has straightened. It still turns out from his body, due to some weak muscles below his elbow but it's straight. Straight!!
Let me remind you how it looked when he came to us
See how his foot is turned completely under. It was like that for a very long time.
This is how Casey looks today
He wants out of the car to swim
Oh wait, you'd like to see his paw. Apart from the picture above, he's always on the move. I'd like to have a word with the veterinarian who thinks Casey would be better off with three legs. How is that even possible? This dog knows no limits because of his orthotic brace.
But the ultimate proof of how well he's doing now comes from this action photo. He ran past me through the kitchen.
It's a crappy photo but perfect all the same. Note which paw is taking all of his weight.
16 months later. Proof that perseverance pays off.
We thought it would take a day or two to lay the sod and paving stones for the sidewalk. It took a total of six days spread out over three weeks.
We thought it would take months to adjust to all living together and it only took several weeks. I suspect it helps that we have separate apartments and can get away from each other.
We thought it would take a month or two (ok, only Mom was that optimistic) to heal Casey's leg. It's been 16 months and he's still in a brace. He's running around like a fool, chasing Ky, leaping for the ball and generally acting like a normal dog.
About a month ago, we hit a snag. His foot slid around in the brace. He limped all the time and held his leg up more often than not. We trained him to put his foot on the floor on command but the rest of the time there was a few inches of clearance between paw and ground. He couldn't seem to put it down unless it was a conscious effort.
I worried that the ligaments or tendons had shortened. It seemed like we had finally received good news about the strength of his shoulder muscles only to have balanced it with bad elsewhere. His brace was falling apart. The sole had to be glued on every other night because he scuffed it so much.
During one of his weekly swims, he hopped over to see Janice at Pawsability. Her initial assessment was that his leg hadn't changed. Once she watched him walk without his brace, something he does with increasing frequency, she realized something important.
The little brown dog with the turned in foot had grown into a large brown dog with a straight leg.
After 16 long months, Casey's leg has straightened. It still turns out from his body, due to some weak muscles below his elbow but it's straight. Straight!!
Let me remind you how it looked when he came to us
See how his foot is turned completely under. It was like that for a very long time.
This is how Casey looks today
He wants out of the car to swim
Oh wait, you'd like to see his paw. Apart from the picture above, he's always on the move. I'd like to have a word with the veterinarian who thinks Casey would be better off with three legs. How is that even possible? This dog knows no limits because of his orthotic brace.
But the ultimate proof of how well he's doing now comes from this action photo. He ran past me through the kitchen.
It's a crappy photo but perfect all the same. Note which paw is taking all of his weight.
16 months later. Proof that perseverance pays off.
Sunday, June 06, 2010
Doors, windows and wishes
You know that old adage, "Be careful what you wish for, you just might get it". Last week's post was full of activity and commitments and I wished I had more time - for friends, for family, for writing, for gardening, for relaxing, for fun. I don't know about fun and relaxation but on Monday one Door slammed shut so hard that the house is still reverberating. The aftershocks popped open three windows. They're small windows. I'd have to go through all three simultaneously to get to the same place that door afforded me but it's nice to know I'm not trapped inside without an emergency exit. I still have the smaller door I've been using all week. All is not lost.
On the upside, I have all that time on my hands. I can finish my courses(once I stop staring aimlessly into space or fighting Ky for the dark chocolate peanut M&Ms that seem to be a primary source of comfort -the chocolate, the dog and the scrambling) I plan to systematically clean and purge every single room in my house - even the haunted basement that Stasholic and I never got around to exorcising on her last visit.
But first, to finish Casey's book. We've had some positive developments in that area and I'm just waiting for the pictures to come through before I share next week. I'll take it over door number one every time.
On the upside, I have all that time on my hands. I can finish my courses(once I stop staring aimlessly into space or fighting Ky for the dark chocolate peanut M&Ms that seem to be a primary source of comfort -the chocolate, the dog and the scrambling) I plan to systematically clean and purge every single room in my house - even the haunted basement that Stasholic and I never got around to exorcising on her last visit.
But first, to finish Casey's book. We've had some positive developments in that area and I'm just waiting for the pictures to come through before I share next week. I'll take it over door number one every time.
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